4somefriends,
Even though I did not live what you did I would have to say based on
experience. When they say maybe we can get back sometime what people
typically mean is that they will be with you when it is convenient for
them. It is not out of love at all but more out of self-centeredness. If
it was me I wold find a way out of there if it is at all possible. If
when you do you can get online even hitting a wifi hotspot like borders
books or starbucks coffee houses as well as most of the major hotel
chains you have all of us here to talk to. This place contains more of
my friends then I have in real life.

damn Kevin that last sentence doesn't say much huh? I can hosently say
I have more friends in real life thank god

Yeah, What are you letting go of Kevin?

I am reading everyone's advice and taken it in to try and figure out
what it is I need to do and I thank you all for your support no matter
how big or small so please cantinue with what ever you think honestly
and thank you Kevin it helped. You all have been very helpful.

Well girl it will not be and easy road but then life is not easy in it's
self. When my ex told me I would never make it without him that just
made me that much more hard headed to show him I could. Told him I made
it without him before I meet him and could damn well do it again only
differnce was I had to kids 7 & 9 to support and take care of that was
15 years ago raised them by myself and they have gave me all the joys in
this world I could ask for. Just remember anything you want to do you
can do But......... YOU HAVE TO WANT TOO FIRST!!

Yeah I know I can live with out them in my life because I did not have
them but I have changed so much since I have gotten with them and by
change I mean for the worse in most areas and for the better in other's
I just don't know who I am any more I don't like who I am I mean I used
to love christmas now I hate it and most other thing's I don't even want
to leave my house other than to go to work yeah I used to be a much
nicer much differnt person now I look at the world in a very bad way.

I was just offering up my view of your post as advice I am not an
expert in the field. I am just me and have my own views. I too also
hated to leave the house except to go to work then I lost my day job and
my dreams began. Now I only leave the house to get coffe or smokes or to
just take a peaceful ride in the car. I have found alot of peace and
serenity these days and it is a dream come true for me. Now all I have
to do is get my business up and running and get my web princess with me
and live happily ever after.