The text feels choppy, sentences too long, too many weird things in them like overusing & and bt. Does the "u" on your keyboard not work or is it too tiring to simply type 'but'?
Not having a go, but if you want to sell yourself you need an easy read.
Also not clear why you keep typing ';'?

In short: rewrite it and make sure to use proper punctuation and dump the chat lingo (& and bt) and ;

Also, try to give it a positive feel. As it is you come across as insecure and needing a woman to buoy you up so you can feel good.
Few women will feel attracted to that.

Then add what kind of relationship and partner you'd like to find.