I've been feeling a strong urge to get back to energy work... it's been a long time since I've actively worked with it or worked on strengthening my spiritual gifts. Which no doubt is why I haven't found my passion or soul purpose yet.

I don't do nearly enough with it anymore either, apart from card readings. I sometimes wonder why not. The urge to find my soul purpose, to live it, is also getting stronger and stronger, but I can't get 100% clear how or what. That's kind of numbing, yet if I'd simply do energy work I'd likely get in the flow again. That's the message I keep getting, to get and stay in the flow.
I feel a strong need to be in nature since about a week. I went out over the weekend, nice walk, right next to a large body of water. I love water. And dang, did I need that!
So if you feel the urge to do something, I'd say do it!
Oh, something else that typical right now: I feel I need to grow again, to absorb things, wisdom, knowledge, whatever. That always goes in waves, sometimes I'm more like teaching it, other times I need to absorb it from people who can teach me. Right now I'm more like needing to absorb, hihi. You got that too?

It's the same with me, I know it will help but I get a numbing feeling. I think sometimes my desire to be in a relationship interferes with my moving forward. Almost like I'm afraid it will mean I have to travel solo. But the journey is solo for now and the only way for me to truly be happy with the right man for me is to find my passion/soul purpose first. Or at least get started and raise that vibration some more.

I love the water, hence picking Riverspirit for my username. I feel closest to nature when I'm near a river and being near water has always helped me with allowing things to flow naturally.

Yes, I too feel the need to grow, to absorb... it's been stressful at work because I'm taking in too much energy from others, the need to get out in nature to help balance that is strong. Only it's pretty dang cold outside right now. There's a trail along the river within walking distance here, I am looking forward to warmer weather so I can start walking it again.

I got the exact same problem. That's why I like talking to you so much as well, we seem to be on the same wavelength, haha.
I too have discovered that being stuck in love is related to being stuck with the rest, soul purpose and so on.
I also feel that if I'd find that partner the rest will kick into gear too, but I'm afraid it'll have to be the other way round otherwise you're dependent on external sources.
I know it can work that way, that you can get extremely powerful inspiration and tremendous boost when in the good connection. Not by them doing anything in particular, but because you then are so danged in alignment with who you are. Your Higher Self.
I've had that happen with my last partner, it was freaking amazing! I finished my book within 2 weeks after having had writer's block for almost a year. Was adamant about finding the right publisher in one go, and I did. All in the time of 2-3 weeks! I started painting again, in a new style with a for me new medium.
But still I feel like you that this time around I gotta be the one to get going first, and then... Then he will come in as well. Sigh. I'd rather have it the other way round, lol. THat's one of my problems, needing a safety-net. Which can be a person, a lump of money behind me would do too, haha.

Water... to me it's mostly fresh water, not so much the sea. Got the beach & sea around the corner, don't appeal to me much. In the 6 years I've been living in this home I've been to the beach once, haha.
I don't need to be in the water per say, just close to it so I can connect with it. Indeed very healing, soothing.

The weather I can understand. I'm lucky here it's starting to get much better. Sunny, some 15C. But you're higher up north now. Hope it'll get better up there soon too!! It's wonderful to see the sun again, also very healing --> light!

Yes, I too need the sun... it's healing light! I enjoy talking with you too about this kind of stuff. We do seem to be on the same page, or at least understand what each other is saying... very refreshing.

Money, haha, that was my latest distraction. Get financially stable and self sustaining and then I can pursue the other. On my way to work this morning I got a clear message that I'm do get back on my spiritual path first and then all those other things I desire will fall into place... but not until I do so, sigh!

Thinking... why is it so difficult to follow directions, haha

But you likely needed the stability of an income in order to feel more free so you can get intuitive impulses again. When having to stress about money and a roof over your head, you can't receive. Safety & security is first priority in life, it then gives space for the rest. The bummer is that work tends to eat up so much time of the day that there's not much left over for other things.
You know the funny thing? I did the most intense and powerful spiritual and ritual things when I was with my narcissistic ex, haha. One would expect you'd not have the space for that then, with so much conflict, stress, and abuse. Yet it is what kept me sane and protected me from all the negativity.
When I moved in this house on my own there wasn't so much need for protection anymore and it all sort of faded away. Which is a shame cos now I have the time and space to properly develop it. I guess it's not the idea, that I'm supposed to do something else.
I thought I'd found my purpose in life with the courses & workshops, but that isn't it either. It's a means to getting there I think, but it's not 'it'. So I too am back to square one...
And then there's age, haha. That stresses me out as well, thinking "I'm danged this old, and I still don't know? I'm running out of time!!" Totally stupid and counter-productive but difficult to let go of.
Right now I've decided to let it all slide a bit, to go back to finding my inspiration. I've lost that too. You know, painting, drumming. That's all got to do with it, if the sacral chakra isn't working properly, you cannot create, not express yourself properly, not digest emotions very well and also not really get relationships going. Sex drive, same things, sex is creating and authentic expression of self.
I'm beginning to think the sacral chakra is hugely underrated. So many things hinge on that being balanced! Mine got a real good blow when my ex broke up with me.

I agree, having a steady job rather than the seasonal ones is a great stress release. And being in a safe place really helps. I've been able to relax over the last couple months and not feel like I had to start planning my next move... or escape! I am fortunate also that I have a supportive friend willing to help me while I figure things out.

It is funny how we are more on top of things and work harder at growing when faced with crisis or being with someone abusive... our survival mode kicks in and makes us more alert and invested in ourselves. It's been that way for me too. Then when I'm in a safe place I relax and stop doing the work. Now if I can get that motivation without being in survival mode I'd be a happy camper, haha

I keep forgetting about clearing and balancing my chakras... very important! Especially the sacral chakra. I'm off work tomorrow, it will be a good time to do that.

Working full time and taking care of household duties is time consuming. But I remember years ago when I was taking care of myself spiritually I had more energy to do those other things. I get complacent and stop... or just take too long of a break, lol.

Anyhoo, I do believe when the time is right and we're truly ready, then we will do what it takes to get where we're going... just wish I could speed it up a little.

It is weird, isn't it? Just before New Year and shortly thereafter I felt SO inspired and driven. Rearing to go. Now I've been trying to get a new course together, which usually I can do real fast, but it's been sitting there and sitting there. I did the first half real fast, had a moment of glory, haha, and banged out the entire first 2 weeks! Within 1-2 hours. I can do it that fast when aligned and tuned in. Now I'm struggling to finish the last 2 weeks, not getting anywhere with it.
Sluggish.
I'll have to try and make sacral chakra work part of my routine as well again. Did that for a couple of months, Donna Eden's Daily Energy Routine AND sacral chakra clearing (also her way) when I was in the shower. I did that for some 3-4 months, daily, then I just stopped.
What is it with this so called Taurus tenacity? Where the f*** does it go when you need it?

Hahaha, I wish I knew where the heck it goes. It was the same with me before Christmas... I arrived here two months ago with a ton of energy. The last couple days I've been in hibernation mode and going to sleep early, getting plenty of rest, but still feel sluggish. Winter blues maybe... or just the much needed plateau before a growth spurt.

Perhaps after doing a cleansing and balancing the chakras things will be more clear and the energy will flow again.

Now there's an interesting thought, a much needed plateau before a new grow spurt. Hmm... That thought alone is inspiring, hihi, and congruent with the desire to absorb things. A phase after which you usually get going again.
Now that's something to hang on to and get inspiration from whilst still being sorta dormant, haha.
Wonderful thought and insight! Thank you!

PS already felt inspired by our conversation to do the Daily Energy Routine again (= 5 mins) and the sacral chakra cleansing = 3-4 minutes.
I do feel better to be honest.
Gonna try and pick up on doing it daily again! When I first started doing it I had 4 days of no pain whatsoever for the first time since I was 27!! It is that powerful. Unfortunately it came back. But it always did make me feel better, more energetic, when I did it.

You're welcome, and thank you! Talking about this helps with insight shining through

Yes, me too... perhaps we could work on this together. Not literally, more like making a commitment to do it each day. To help each other stay motivated. I'd like that

Oh.... it does make more sense now why I'm sleeping so much. My body is preparing itself. I usually fight the sleep but decided to sleep when I need to this time.

I'd like that too :) Maybe best via PM?
And now you mention sleep... Last couple of weeks I'm not sleeping well at all. Dreaming and dreaming and dreaming, bleeh... I clench my teeth all night long again. I had a phase like that last year too. My teeth aching, and now thinking of actually going for a night brace.
But, thinking maybe this is also why I am not full of energy and inspired. I don't sleep well. Haven't in weeks. Effing dreams and it doesn't seem to stop. So I think I'm just not fit/rested enough to get inspired.
And yes, sharing and exchanging helps a lot! The power of sisterhood, haha.

Here's to the power of sisterhood

Funny you mentioned dreams, I wasn't dreaming before that I could remember. But in the last week I have been. For me that's exciting because I often get visions or messages from my dreams.

And yes, best via PM

I’m thinking this generation of kids are screwed if technology ever went away ....had a fun time asking my son to find things in a old school phone book good ol afternoon entertainment

would make an interesting thread crystal

Indeed it would, but not on Mingle. Wrong audience. I post much about this type of thing, and I think it is pretty safe to say I am the most ignored poster on Mingle. Sometimes ppl copy what I've said almost verbatim and they get reactions. I'm mostly skipped. I'm either too wise or too intimidating or both, haha.

Thinking people often balk at what they don't understand rather than trying to understand it. It upsets the status quo of what they believe/want to believe to be true about their existence. Those that have a higher vibration or are highly evolved beings are usually pegged as eccentric or crazy, or as some sort of deity with gifts that are unattainable to humans.

Highly evolved beings are often ignored, persecuted, shunned, or crucified, so it is somewhat understandable why exploring that would be intimidating and cause them to run the other way... humans yearn for connectedness with others. Going into the unknown means to travel that road of disconnectedness/darkness until you find that true connectedness/light.

Very true. I've found that the further I'm getting on my path, the lonelier it becomes. Even within so called spiritual cycles you don't really find people who are truly more evolved. It's always the ones who whinge and whine. What I've noticed throughout the years as well is that many people with mental health problems end up on spiritual forums. And often serious mental health problems.
In all these years of being on my spiritual path and personal development I've yet to find a place -whether online or offline- with people at a similar level.
I think most tend to withdraw and live more in their own world. Likely because as you say they easily get judged and wrongly assessed (is that the right word?).
Maybe that's why many of these people begin their own practice/business? In that way you can share what you know. It's still not the equal exchange you crave, but it's something.

Definitely when it comes to mental health... they tend to have more gifts than disabilities yet they are medicated because they are grossly different... to function as a "normal" person. "Wrongly assessed" is a good word for it. I believe many mental health issues are really dis-eases of the mind.

When I worked with children who had autism it was amazing to how many teachers tried to force them to live in our world rather than trying to understand their world. I had that ability and connecting with the few that I did was amazing.

I too felt more of the loneliness the more I grow. But once I became more aware/enlightened it was difficult to return to being ignorant... I sometimes felt it was more of a curse than a blessing. I can't stay in withdrawn for very long anymore, the more I ignore my higher self the louder she knocks, haha. My body ailments are a sure sign when I become stagnant... knotted up muscles, headaches, eye strain, etc... When I embrace it all those symptoms and pain disappears. Same with my mental health issues. There was a time when I couldn't function without medication, now I can't function on medication... it no longer serves a purpose. The only thing that works to eliminate any symptoms I experience is to raise my vibration level.

There are social groups, gatherings, and workshops where you can connect with others that are embracing their spiritual path and soul purpose. Usually in the larger cities, though it's difficult sometimes to find authenticity, there's a lot of ego driven groups and people doing it for misguided reasons.

The only place where I have found true resonance is a spiritual centre in the north of the country. One of the best, the woman who's founded it is at a ridiculous high level (go figure how lonely she must be, hihi), and its unique in what it offers. Even though the center is very busy, she still does all the high energy workshops herself. She's got people employed, all trained in her center and some are also very good. But so far no one does these workshops but her. I don't think anyone can. It's hard work too as she has to carry the energyfield for the entire group, often over 30 ppl, AND do the work.
It's a place where ppl go who are also further on their path, although there's differences of course, and that's one of the few places I've found to be good to be.
Haven't been there anymore since 2010. It's far away, very expensive, and I have received and downloaded what I needed from her.

Another one who did really good workshops on high vibrational things (Tibetan Lightwork, Lemurian things etc.) was also weird. Most of the group wasn't as far as me, so she slowed it down. After a while I got restless, cause it means I constantly have to stop my own flow. And then she -the workshop leader- whacked me energetically!! Seriously! I was shocked! My eyes flew open in shock, and she looked straight at me with that look of "There! Put that in your pipe... BIOTCH!"
GREAT spiritual leader you are then! I've never done another workshop with her. And apart from that, again groups who aren't at the same level.

So even if you go to spiritual groups/centres it's often not fulfilling. It's just really quite lonely.