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| Topic: What r u thinking about right now?? - part 65 | |
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I'm thinking about ways to kill myself, which is oddly comforting. I'm not going to actually go through with killing myself, but it does comfort me to know that I have that option. We all have options... choice is a great thing isn't it? It comforts me to know that you aren't actually going to go through with it. 
Yea that's kinda where I find comfort in it. It's my choice and if I really want out, I can, but some how I always wake up to a new day, so I must enjoy the fight in some way, regardless of how my mind wants to make me think I feel. No need to call any numbers or anything. It's not something most would understand. I know it's not normal to find comfort in it. At this point, I don't fight the thoughts and urges, I just figure out how to work with them, so instead of being tormented, I found a way for them to bring comfort. It's not that I actually want to go through with it. It's just my minds way of saying, I'm stressed and need an escape. Same with thoughts and urges to drink or use drugs. Although I do give in to the urge to smoke a cigarette or cigar, but that's not bad considering what I could be using. Caffeine and nicotine are really the only drugs I use anymore. Rarely I'll take an aspirin or ibuprofen, but even try to avoid that anymore. I'm thinking I might need a nice dog. I want to wait until I have my kids back first and let them pick the dog out, make sure it's a good fit for us. |
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I'm thinking about ways to kill myself, which is oddly comforting. I'm not going to actually go through with killing myself, but it does comfort me to know that I have that option. We all have options... choice is a great thing isn't it? It comforts me to know that you aren't actually going to go through with it.
Yea that's kinda where I find comfort in it. It's my choice and if I really want out, I can, but some how I always wake up to a new day, so I must enjoy the fight in some way, regardless of how my mind wants to make me think I feel. No need to call any numbers or anything. It's not something most would understand. I know it's not normal to find comfort in it. At this point, I don't fight the thoughts and urges, I just figure out how to work with them, so instead of being tormented, I found a way for them to bring comfort. It's not that I actually want to go through with it. It's just my minds way of saying, I'm stressed and need an escape. Same with thoughts and urges to drink or use drugs. Although I do give in to the urge to smoke a cigarette or cigar, but that's not bad considering what I could be using. Caffeine and nicotine are really the only drugs I use anymore. Rarely I'll take an aspirin or ibuprofen, but even try to avoid that anymore. I'm thinking I might need a nice dog. I want to wait until I have my kids back first and let them pick the dog out, make sure it's a good fit for us. Thinking I can identify with that and understand probably more than you might think or more than most would. Keep on keeping on! 
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Edited by
Toodygirl5
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Sun 09/09/18 06:33 PM
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Had Great Day! Friend couple called came from out of town to meet for dinner.
They live 40 miles East of me. Great dinner and visit !!  
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Suicide is the leading cause of death in college students. So saddening
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Suicide is the leading cause of death in college students. So saddening
Yes it is very sad I lost my son to that twelve years ago. 
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Suicide is the leading cause of death in college students. So saddening
Yes it is very sad I lost my son to that twelve years ago.
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I'm thinking this place needs some happy thoughts.
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Suicide is the leading cause of death in college students. So saddening
Yes it is very sad I lost my son to that twelve years ago.
I lost my best friend
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college
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Wondering about all the randoms, if any one of them are real...
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Im thinking... Id like to find a local honest mechanic who works for themselves.. Within a 10 mile radius in case the car wont make it... *laughing*
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THIS interview I actually want and hope it goes well. lol
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Thinking happy thoughts
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THIS interview I actually want and hope it goes well. lol Good luck on the interview, I hope you get it! |
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Im thinking... Id like to find a local honest mechanic who works for themselves.. Within a 10 mile radius in case the car wont make it... *laughing* that's harder than finding the perfect date! good luck!
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THIS interview I actually want and hope it goes well. lol Good luck on the interview, I hope you get it! Thanks, I think I'll get it, but keeping it will be the challenge. Hopefully it works out either way. |
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It's been a lovely day.
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sex,and chocolate!!
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The idiocy of the DPS for DL renewal.
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Thinking that ladies dress was not much of a dress and didn’t cover that much...
 
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