(((((((((((bro)))))))))) keep in touch my friend.. you'll be missed!!! *z leaves 2 extra large kegs of blue juice and a dozen sippy straws at his front door*

Much bro!!

mmmmmm blue juice thanks sis

(((( Chris )))))

Ohhhhhhhhhhh your home again,, Play, Laugh and love life my sweet friend,,,,,

((MOM))))))))
but no not back just kinda visiting every once in a while lol

>Tuesdays dark night made my dark life look bright
murderous intentions were created by over-use abuse of
stimulants and depressants
i cut me hard cut me deep i take my life when im asleep
let me live till i awaken.....
cold sharp steel in my intestine
sit arround and wait they will
waiting for my blood to spill
children laugh and children kill
the things i draw give me a chill
its still raining
wy shoes are allways wet....

OL...can't remember if i posted on the collection yet...

great stuff guy....keep up the good work...and don't forget to say hi when you come back from the real world...

Hey JB thanks for posting my friend I am kinda in and out of here lol

Sorry just updating


"This Morning"


The first rays of sun break through the tree tops and greet me as my eyes adjust to another magnificent day
A brisk winter breeze blows through my hair
I stand silently and listen to the beautiful song of the birds as a small deer wonders through the lawn
The deck still chilly from the night air and gently kissed with dew
The only warmth from my coffee still steaming into the morning sky
The last few leaves on the trees dance in the wind
Cars from the freeway race by but sound like rushing water as I close my eyes to take in the sounds of morning
The sun now high enough to warm my face
A new day begins

Just updating again sorry


The first snow


Beautiful gray skies hypnotizes and conjures daydreams
Drawn to the window while , what seems like, millions of frozen petals, float gracefully
The hardened earth invites readily as its slowly blanketed by mystical serenity
The wind guides and cradles its children
The beautiful gray smiles down as it shares itself to all who will admire
Childlike happiness grows inside with each passing minute
Even the bitter cold of winter has its alluring traits
More quickly the travelers fall now
In an attempt to conceal the last of the fallen heroes left by autumn
Still hypnotized unable to free myself from the portal
I share my soul, if even for a few moments, with the beauty of the gray cold


Obscurelight

i love it when you up date,

i wish i could see the sights you have seen today.. damn me for living in texas

Updating one before I head to work sorry

Bound To Heart

Romances are gained and romances are lost
Why in the end is that our heart must pay the cost
A never ending search to find what we need
Racking our brains and with our emotions we plead
Wandering in and out of happiness feeling its right
To have only them turn on you and cause pain out of spite
Eyes are beginning to open and see this is not healthy
Where love is concerned I am but a poor man not one that is wealthy
The end it draws near and the shadows consume
My place so it may seem is right here in this room
Devastation my partner of feelings and thought
The only thing love has to offer is the pain that its brought
Bound with invisible chains that clamp not to my wrist
No longer having the strength to simply clench a fist
A moment of clarity has passed by once again
These walls have consumed me and I shall stay right here within
For no longer shall I set myself in that familiar place
No longer can I bear to see the sadness in my face
Upon glancing in the mirror day in and day out
I can no longer live with a heart that refuses to release love refuses to shout
A nonexistant hope now hovers above my fate
And so I write down from my heart this rhyme I now create
The agony of defeat dwells strong from this point on
Only can I hope that this ramble is wrong


Obscurelight

thx for sharing my friend

"Bound To Heart"...as I read the words you have written my brother I see myself reflected in them once again.Visit when you can and when you need to.

Love & light to you ((((Chris ))))))

thanks for posting arcadefan

You know me sis always struggling to free up some luggage ((((((SIS)))))))))

and you as well Mom (((((Mom))))))

Seems I am behind on updating a bit


Ramble

Searching for keys to unlock the future
Bound to this circle this worn out path
Why must the past haunt
Why must the past torture
Why must I be chased by a venomous vulture

Found many of doors and knocked on a plenty
But the hallway so long
The hallway so empty

No welcome mat can be seen
By any of the passages
What must I do
What should I think
What should I stay in this boat or jump out and watch it sink

My paddles are gone
I just want to let my heart sing
But I can't find the words I haven't a song

Do what I must
Run I cannot
When will this end
When shall I see
When can I stop and stand ground and no longer flee

I will just jump in my lonely little puddles
Thats what I know I know best
Either that or continue to write all these rambles

more rambling

Driven to fight through this so called life
Left alone hanging high and dry
Tension so high it broke the knife
Sick of wiping the same tear from my eye

Running in circles until dizziness sets in
Dazed and in corners and still my brain wanders
Waiting for a better place to appear and except me within
Can't go on living this way while my heart sits and ponders

Waking up in shadows but preaching of light
Wondering is anyone even understands my projections of thought
Strong as I can be through times such as these and still willing to fight
Getting sick of reliving battles that I have fought

And no matter what happens I still ramble on
To anyone who will read this stuff and relate in some form or another
I will keep rambling until I can think of no more for I am no ones pawn
But i still thank you all for reading you are all my sisters and brothers

yet more rambles

A symphonic disaster
I need a new caster to mold me into something a new
When gray clouds and shadows haunt every aspect
And all words meanings become misconstrued
Feelings unrelenting
Sorry just felt like venting
And get some unneeded luggage to dissipate
Not really looking for anyone that wants to relate
Sometimes demons just take over
And there isn't a tree for us to hide under
Heart almost escaped but the filters gave up and then the shadows flanked it
Still sittng by the river without being able to reach the other enbankment
Passers by laugh and taunt
Takes quite a bit of restraint
Not to lash out and drop down in the hole that they live within
Why should I go dwell there thats where I once had to begin
Something must give or walls shall grow stronger
Not sure if my heart can take all of this much longer
Casting away shadows can take such a tole
But i can feel them , eating away at my very soul

still updating

Casted
Wasted
Dwelling on things that will never be

Shelfed
Angry at ones self
Glued in a chair that won't let me free

Inside shielding
Hatred not yielding
Not really caring what you think of me or who I am

Lonely
Responsible solely
At the end of a firey rope and about to fall back to land

Hopeless
Pointless
Why keep on trying to live in noneexistant dreams

Broken
Outspoken
I don't even know what any of this means

ok this is all for now

x-mas ramble


It all starts with a commercial on the TV
Little eyes gaze upon something new, such a mystery
Then something snaps and then, then they must go
And stand by your feet just to let you know
I saw this amazing thing on the television
Its just what Santa should bring this is what I have been wishin

The next thing you know you are sitting in your conveince
Locked up in traffic , with no exit in sight not even a glimpse
Off to the store you find yourself racing
No time for wating this is not a time for pacing
Racing to the store in a madhouse of people
Not enough time to look at that movie you want ... what they already made a sequel

To some this time of year seems such a hassle
To run around like a fool and being so taskful
We spend all our money and used every moment of time
But still I sit here now to give you this rhyme
And I can promise you that all of your hardships will all be repaid
As soon as you see the eyes of your children open on Christmas day