I wrote this last night at work...listening to Christmas music on the radio, it brought tears to my eyes and made me choke back my tears but it was hard. It's about Christmas won't be the same without being with my girls like it used to be.

Christmas Tears

Last night I cried
Listening to Christmas songs,
My heart laid heavy
Of what was yet to come.
No more being sneaky
Of playing good ol' St. Nick,
Waking in the morning
Within a moments lick.
To see smiling faces
Of those three beautiful girls,
Christmas isn't the same
Not seeing the one in curls.
Or my other two angels
With beautiful smiling faces,
Rushing through the gifts
It's like a day at the races.
The tears fall like snow
But never so light,
I'll miss those special moments
As I cry here tonight.

now i'm crying

Your not alone, I sooooo know that feeling!

I know exactly how that feels. Now I have mine make sure that they are at my house promptly at 10am,I fix a huge breakfast and they start opening presents. It is not the same however cos they are not little anymore but when they all are there it is a madhouse and fun!

Brenda....I didn't mean to make you cry....

Mry....We will get through it, it's just going to take some time.

D....I would love to be able to feel the madhouse feeling again...and cleaning up the wrapping paper and tape...oh and the bows. The closer Christmas gets the more I dread it.

Wolfeyes - Beautiful

I had that feeling for many years. I know it all too well. Just know you're never alone. After a lot years of being down during the holidays missing my kids and mailing presents my two boys wanted to live with me. Things will work out, just hang in there. I wish you all the very best during the holidays.

Ron

Thanks Jayne for your comments....they are certainly welcomed with love.

Ron....thanks for the encouragement...I know it's going to be hard and I will have to adjust...but this will be my first one away from them and away from all the memories.

Robert...

It will get better honey, I know it will. This year will be the hardest for you... You will get to see them and have your own memories with them. It will not be forgotten, only different this year...that's all.

Jo

Holidays should be shared. Period! No matter what the children should see both parents and enjoy the days with both sides.

Divorce is so hard. But I really try to share with my ex so the kids don't feel the pain and see the good side of getting double gifts. LOL

I know presents is not what Christmas is about, but it helps take a bit off the edge, if able to see that 'plus' .... (at least)

I'm sorry Wolf for your emptiness, and it was beautifully shared .. I sure hope you get SOME of the holiday with them ..

(((( wolfeeeeee )))))

Love & Light to you,,, My arms hold you my love I share with you,, Hugs to you my friend

Thanks Jo, yes it will be different this year and I am going to try to make the most of it I can and make some new memories. Take care sweetie.

Thansk Fade...I agree somewhat...that both should be there to share the joy of Christmas with the ones they brought into this world. But, as you say, divorce is hard. Thanks again for your kind words and may you be blessed this Holiday season.

MOM....you are always a dear for you longs to reach and give me a hug, always well accepted and always warm to the touch. Thanks D.

I felt that way when my children grew up...
like everything had changed some how.
wolfeyes

Thanks MsTeddy....It does have that lonely effect. But, as in everything else, I will slowly survive this. Much love to you and yours.

Robert a very nice write,brought tears to my eyes because I can so relate...but some how we always get through your in my thoughts and prayers

sir i hate to inform u of ur slight mistake.....i think it is Christmas cheers not christmas tears that would be soooo sad

No, I think I got the title right goldenstar...yep, I'm quite sure. Thanks for the feedback though. Have a good day.
Robert

Robert so sorry for your heatache, its so sad that when two get a divorce they can not think of the kids first of all on those special days. And let all enjoy that moment I know I was guilty of those same things the first couple of years before I seen what it did to all and then there Dad was invited to join in on Christmas morning but he chose not too. On all Holidays it should instead in the court papers list that both parents find a mutual place and all stay and wake up to enjoy the magic of Christmas for the little ones. But since it dont the only thing we can do is be honest with each other of our wishes one never knows what the other will agree to if you mention it now and give them a month to think about it before giving an answer. Not saying it will work but at least give it a try then you can say in your heart at least you tried. Wish my ex had wanted those things and voiced them but he never did. My heart is with you my friend.

OK Darlin one more time and then I am coming down there...Start your own traditions..
D

Nice poem and songstress has a most excellent point. You can wallow in what you don't have or you can give the girls the best gift; you, your time, and your give a rip - just 'cause it won't be what it used to be doesn't mean it won't be better as long as there's love and meaning, y'all will be just fine.