SITTING HERE THOUGHTS FILL MY HEAD

SITTING HERE WISHING I WERE DEAD

FEELING LIKE IM GOING INSAIN

MY WHOLE SOUL AND BODY FULL OF PAIN

SITTING ALONE I BEGIN TO CRY

WISHING THERE WAS AN EASY WAY TO DIE

KNOWING WHAT I WOULD LEAVE BEHIND

KNOWING I WOULD HURT THE KIDS OF MINE

THEY ARE THE REASON I HANG ON

THEY ARE THE REASON I STAY STRONG

I GAVE THE OATH MY KIDS TO RAISE

BUT NEVER KNEW LIFE WOULD BE SUCH A HAZE

FOR SOME THINGS ILL NEVER KNOW

BUT MY HURT AND CONFUSION WILL ALWAYS SHOW

I DONT KNOW HOW IT SEEMED TO BE

THE MAN I LOVED SO... HASNT LOVED ME

I VE LOVED HIM FROM DAY ONE AND BECAME HIS WIFE

BUT HE HAS HURT ME MOST OF MY LIFE

I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY OR HOW

BUT I KNOW I MEANT MY WEDDING VOW

IVE BEEN THERE THROUGH THICK AND THIN

BUT SOMEONE PLEASE HELP THIS PAIN WITH IN

I WISH I KNEW A WAY TO DIE

A PLACE I WONT ALWAYS HURT INSIDE

I NEVER KNEW LOVE HURT THIS BAD

I ONLY WANTED A HUSBAND AND GOOD DAD

I WISH THE PAIN WOULD GO AWAY

I WISH I NEVER THOUGHT OF DYING LIKE TODAY

OH GOD PLEASE HELP ME LIVE ANOTHER DAY

HELP ME GOD OR MY KIDS WILL SAY

MOM WHAT A COWARD YOU ARE

WHY DID YOU DIE ALONE IN YOUR CAR?

WE LOVED YOU MOM WITH ALL WE HAD

AND NEVER BLAMED YOU MOM FOR THE ACTIONS OF DAD

MY KIDS WOULD MISS ME THIS I SEE

BUT THEY DONT SEE ALL THE PAIN THAT FILLS ME

GOD GIVE ME COURAGE ,GIVE ME PEACE

PLEASE GOD HEAL THE PAIN OH PLEASE

I WISH IT WOULD ALL GO AWAY

OH GOD GIVE ME COURAGE TO LIVE ANOTHER DAY

MY KIDS NEED ME GOD THIS I KNOW

MY KIDS NEED ME GOD TO HELP THEM GROW

ILL BE GOOD TO THEM GOD I KNOW I WILL

IF YOU WILL HELP MY HEART AND SOUL HEAL

HELP ME FOR MY KIDS... OH GOD PLEASE

TELL ME YOU HEAR ME GOD PLEASE !!!!PLEASE!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!

I feel your pain!

THANK YOU..I WROTE THAT RIGHT AFTER MY HUSBAND LEFT ME FOR ANOTHER WOMAN AND WHEN HE LEFT THE DROPPED THE BOMB THAT SHE WAS HIS 5TH AFFIAR IN OUR 13 YEAR MARRIAGE....

God loves you girl!!!

God loves you girl!!!

THANK YOU TEDDY BEAR

I know how that feels and still I know I am in a better place I still love and miss him the same time. They may leave, but don't mean you will ever have that special person physicaly leave your soul. We made kids together and he left me 4 years ago for a coworker and still with her. Some how you manage to look back and wonder on what strength you got to make it this far and I can truly say if I did not have my kids I am sure I would be dead. Don't get me wrong I have to come to that better place, but to totally believe that love truly exist out their well that is another story! I am glad to see that I was not the only one whoever felt this way from time to time. God bless you and remember you are not alone and look for the power within to keep on going :O)

THANK YOU..I TAKE THING ONE DAY ATA TIME AND HAVE FOR AWHILE NOW..EVERY MORNING WHEN I SEE MY KIDS BEAUTIFUL FACES I GO ON..IM SORRY YOU TOO WAS HURT AND I WISH YOU ALL THE PRAYERS IT TAKES TO HELP YOU HEAL ALSO

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TY AGAIN BRIAN

Beautiful, yet heart wrenching at the same time. It may seem that you are in the depths of despair, but look around you, you have your children and what you do not yet realise is you are on the way to healing. Taking up your pen and producing an exquisite piece such as this tells me that you are on your way back. Good luck to you

ty....

awww bttrfly, I can feel your pain when you wrote this
About all you can do is take one day at a time, as you said.
I wish you all the best, and keep hangin' in there

Not only are you your kids' best choice of mom, after all who else knows them the way you do. Who else will let them grow to be what they should be. You, my dear, are also your own best friend. Wherever you go - there you are. Make friends with you, it's a hand well worth extending.

ty all so very much the kind words blessed me.....may God Bless you all.....

Never judge your self worth by the actions or words of another. Rather measure your happiness by your smile, and do what you must to always keep it there, to share with those who love you and that you love. Kids are always a good reason for any decision, just find your smile in your choices.

thank you no_ psychos