I was just crying over that boy Kat posted on.

aww ((((((((catch))))))))

morning ((((((((LG)))))))))))

again Lady.. you humble me with your words of welcome and praise.. I am feeling awkward... yet honored!

((((((((ZZ))))))))

good morning all, who has the doob today?

sorry.. just put one out

(((((Morning Lisa)))))

you can get mushy if you want
and if not, it is cool too...

i love you sister have a great day


i used to be such a clean freak...

i would put in 18 hour days with my little children

all of them were in cloth diapers...

never used disposables....

always making sure everything was disinfected
and my kitchen floors were so clean...
people would say the floors were so clean
you could eat off of them....
well, i don't agree with that..

but i can still remember my two year old daughter
and my infant twins, back then... not so very long ago...
the twins boy and girl
were like little 'roomba' vacuum cleaners
when they were crawling..

those eyes with perfect vision...
would zone in....
totally
on the most inconspicuous
most minute speck of dust...

and then show it to me.....

so, i would get on my hands and knees
and wash the kitchen floor after every single meal...

i was like a whirlwind of energy
and work back then..
i wouldn 't even take breaks ...

i was a dressmaker
making clothes for myself
and the children...
two girls and a boy...

gardens...

endless church services....

endless cleaning and homemaking...

homemade breads and casseroles
lasagna for an army...

huge dinner parties
for family and friends

baking truckloads of
zucchinni nut bread


tv???
what is that?

oh, that's what my husband watched
every night when he came home from work...



and now..with my children grown
and on their own...

i get a case of
the empty nest blues
sometimes...


and my awesome man still
has not found me yet...

so from time to time...
is it any wonder...

why...

i don't care to keep up on everything?

don't worry (zero effected)

i am just quite dramatic...

you'll get used to me....

(((((V))))) you rawk gurl!

Mikey.....







it's over here Sweetie....

Hey Fresh...

How are you Mountain Woman...

honey i forgot you name
i am so spaced out and on overload as usual
please don't take it personal...

i always seem to spread myself so thin...

and i 'm trying so hard
for balance in my life..
i feel such a love
& even a huge responsibility
to all of my online friends....

My Mom tells me it is a ministry...

I have too much inside
to just let it go by..

oh, i forgot to say...
that I have been basically widowed twice
and what doesn't kill us....
they say makes you stronger...

all those cliches' meant nothing to me
when i was in the darkest throes of grief...
when i was at my darkest hour
on valentine's day
right after my fiance' Richie passed away
after falling from the top
of a load of lumber
from the back of his semi-truck
a week before Christmas and
passing away on January 3rd...1997...

so,right after that
the literal 'basket case' that i became...
i was driving on back mountain roads
with no guard rails...
smoking weed every day
till i fell over,
crying my eyes out
and not even being able
to evn see the windshield
from all of my tears...

and i truly believe
that it was "only"
by the grace of God
that I am here today....


I remember driving...

or was it that I was being carried???


to one of our favorite spots
at Rattlesnake Bar in Newcastle
at the very top of Folsom Lake
where the north and miidle forks
of the American empty into the lake...

and i was a completely broken shell of a woman..
crying my eyes out once again..
and then at my darkest hour....
I heard for the very first time... .

the tiniest most precious sound
coming from the top of the cottonwood tree ..
it was the tiny chirping song of a hummingbird....

hey how are you rapunsel????

well, hello Baby Boy dragonyosh..

oh..i am so good you found us....

I haven't gotten your name down either...

but i want you to make this place your home
and get to know of all of our dear online friends here


You need to be a total gentlemean...

stop in and say hi to Grannit too
at his "hang em high saloon..."
in the chit chat thread..

now remember

You can flirt with the ladies...
but always in the utmost of good taste...
and only if they want you to...
only ask them what they are wearing ...
if ....
it is okay with them ...

okay...

total gentleman... i mean

((((Vanessa)))) truth..what does not kill us makes us stronger..the will to survive must be strong in your soul first.You embody this strength my dear one.

droppin in to say hey and love ya rapunzel....

mmmmmmuuuuuuuaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!

(((((<<<<<JENNI>>>>)))))

love you lil poet gurl

(((((<<<<<MIKE ISLAND BOY >>>>>)))))


Mmmmuuunaaaahhhhh to you also, Our Dear Love

Ladies, I'd like you to please take good care
of these fine gentlemen while i am gone ......
i leave next tuesday the 13th sooooooo early



and Gentlemen

please take the best care

of my awesome Lady Friends



thank you

you know i will V....

wanted to stop in and hug all the sexy ladies