Kimi, it means your antenna is working, you're picking up things.
Not open that door? You cannot heal unless you do... But you can do it in baby steps. Start by paying heed to your intuition, every time you have to make a decision, no matter how small and insignificant. If your intuition tells you to turn left, not right, then turn left. If it tells you to call someone, do it. If it tells you to go somewhere, go there. Etc. etc.
When you pay heed to your intuition, you acknowledge it, meaning it can develop. That way you will start to sense/intuite more and more. You start to grow.
Also learn to ground and shield yourself. You can find info on this online, even YouTube guided meditations. Don't skip this step. Vitally important.
And learn to cleanse your aura from all the energies you pick up during the day (we all do). YOu can find info on this online as well.
If you're doing all this, you are well on your way. You will start meeting the right ppl at the right time, will find yourself in the right places at the right time etc. etc. Just make sure you'll notice these things.

I have a milder form of what you are going through, I can feel and sometimes see spirits, I'll get dreams of people I know when they are going though a life changing event. And rarely I'll get prophetic dreams.

Someone I know. Most of the stuff I'm thinking at the time, he'll suddenly say it out loud to me. I try not to pull a surprised face. Otherwise he'll wonder what the hell I'm thinking about.