I can say that I'm a man that lives without fear, but I lie. Love is my greatest fear. I fear falling in love with someone that I cannot keep. Cause love is so complicated. The fear of losing love is just as scary, especially when the feeling is so strong and unbreakable that you don't wanna image a life without her...
Why you ask...?
I fear the answer, as the question is more complex that one might think. The fall to love her might be in vain and as commitment issues arise there just are no answers for this lady of mine.
Her feelings are genuine, mine are just a camoflauge for my reality.
Her touch is of pure comfort, mine is of pure lust.
Her kiss is full of passion, mine holds secrets she will never know.
Her smile can light up a mansion, but fails at lighting my heart.
See... the truth hurts and this is the reason why some live lies. But I can't say this is a lie. 'Cause I try to love only to fear the consequences. Love comes from all directions, so trying to dodge it is a fight I can't win. I don't know why... I just know how.
How to commit without making a commitment.
How to have what I chose not to keep.
How to keep what I want to have.
And most of all, how to protect myself from the fall to love using fear as a shield... But what of a weapon??? I need no weapon. If anything, I learned that my heart is a weapon for those who try to love me... My Fear Of Love is My Greatest Love.

Ah, kind sir, but it is far, far better to have lost in love than never to have truly loved at all, for you have let the flicker of love die before having experienced the full flame of love which destroys the weakness of fear..... Peace.

"Where there is love there is life."
~Mahatma Gandhi


Your expression is beautiful....

"My heart is a weapon for those who try and love me."

Wow, so strong and crystalline,

My friend,
Why worry what may or may not be? Today you have her and she has you. Today you feel loved and today you love. Just take today
Make the most of today, go give your lady friend a kiss to last forever, go make yourself a fabulous memory.

This is a point well made, my dear. But this is someone that has no intentions to Love anyone. Fear being his greatest love is something he refuses to let go of. Sad State Of Mind? Indeed.

Thank you for the kind words. Writing is something I love doing. Especially when it is enjoyed by others.