Topic: New Start
kc2372's photo
Thu 02/14/13 07:06 PM
I was going to write a post about how angry and mad I am at him and myself after giving away 20 yrs of my life to a man that never appreciated me and didn't deserve me. NOPE! Not gonna do that. When I thought about the fact that I already gave away 20 yrs I refuse to give away another second to him.

Everyday will be a day I give back to myself. Being angry is still giving too much. Instead, I am focusing on how good it feels to be free from hell and I feel like the smartest woman in the world because I think and feel completely different. I actually know and BELIEVE that I am way, way better than him and how I allowed myself to be treated. I know, should be something you automatically think but crazy enough I just realized that at age of 41.

I know it's because I loved this sad excuse for a man more than I loved myself and there was the root of it all. Now that I have become a Noble Peace Prize genius and rediscovered the wheel of "loving your self" I most definitely know better.

It is very empowering knowing that my value is worth a hell of a lot more than the sorry piece of nothing I thought was a marriage. And oddly I get a good laugh knowing dumb dumb thinks having a long distance phone relationship with a woman 12 yrs younger than him who is locked up in jail in another state is a better choice than me. Beautiful, college educated, insurance professional, mother of his 3 children and a dam good woman. Being a genius gives you confidence, can you tell. Oh yeah did I mention Mr.Dumb Dumb ironically is a correctional officer.

Me being the newly educated genius that I am has figured out, what in the world do I have to be angry about. Yeah, that's a make your side hurt laugh right there.

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Thu 02/14/13 07:10 PM
Anger does nothing but give someone the power over your life..............sounds like you are taking control of your life you go girl...................

kc2372's photo
Thu 02/14/13 07:23 PM
Yes indeed!...better late than never

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Thu 02/14/13 07:29 PM
drinks flowers You go girl!drinker :banana:

galendgirl's photo
Thu 02/14/13 07:32 PM
Kudos! Don't be angry...it only gives him the power. Take your power back with positive outlook and moving forward and loving the person you are. The "universe" doesn't make mistakes and so don't look back...no regrets, but it's a whole new day. Live fully and be happy!

I salute you!
flowerforyou

kc2372's photo
Thu 02/14/13 07:39 PM
Feeling good about yourself is better than a 5 hour energy drink. When you let yourself just feel that you are worth it and valuable don't you just get a boost of energy you can't explain. :banana:

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Thu 02/14/13 08:03 PM
keep on rockin' in the free world

blessings!flowerforyou

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Thu 02/14/13 08:09 PM
Good for you for getting rid. flowerforyou. When meeting a new guy, I usually check out his mannerisms, self-respect, and what he wants out of life. It's the quality of a man. If we ain't on the same page, then I just politely decline.

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Fri 02/15/13 01:32 AM
Good for you! You know what they say: Living well is the best revenge.

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Fri 02/15/13 02:10 AM
kc2372, I'm very happy for you,I too did the same thing but it was 24 years before my eyes finally opened to see I was with the wrong man. Oh it is most definatly better late than never.happy and for sure, anger will only give power.

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Fri 02/15/13 02:46 PM


Everyday will be a day I give back to myself. Being angry is still giving too much. Instead, I am focusing on how good it feels to be free from hell and I feel like the smartest woman in the world because I think and feel completely different.



Good thought!

kc2372's photo
Sat 02/16/13 07:16 AM
Having at least one good thought a day is proof that anger has not won.

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Sun 02/17/13 11:59 AM
Thanks all! Have been feeling myself wanting to be angry but you are right dont give them the power! I too lost 20 yrs of my life to someone then 4 years later gave away another year to a really big jerk lol and you know what not gonna let him steal anymore time. Yea Mr. Right hahaha....but never gonna give up on looking just hope I get smarter and no more time is lost...happy