It hurts because it implies you have lesser value for having lived that lifestyle -- which is an error.

Your value has nothing to do with arbitrary standards a stranger has set up for his use in evaluating other people. Don't take it that way.

He cannot establish your value. Only you can do that.

Some maybe do keep people out of their lives, it's their choice.
It's not about you, don't take it personally sweetie.

People have different points of view in life. Don't expect everyone to like apples or to think the way other people do. We all here and everyone is different. If he puts in his profile, "NO REDHEADS, NO WHITE GIRL, NO ASIAN, AND NO GIRLS WITH MORE THEN 793,807 DOLLARS IN THEIR BANK ACCOUNT" That's his choice, you can't force others to your will. It wasn't meant to happen. All you can do is keep your money and respect his privacy.

because you've worked so hard to be in a different place, YOU probably didn't like YOU back then. it's hard for some to believe people change, when in fact, they do, i know they do. you know they do. you did!! be proud, don't give that any power to hurt you. you did that to yourself enough already.

If you keep thinking about it, you will drive yourself nuts.

I tend to dwell on things that bother me. It's like I feel inadequate just because I don't "get" something. Truth is, the only thing making me feel that way is myself. So, it's better to let it go.

I understand that. I've had people get upset because they find things out about my past without asking me, but rather doing their own background checks. I've also had them get upset when I've told them things about my past. I've also met people who understand that the past is the past and what has been done is not what define us.

I don't hide my past either, and I'm not ashamed of it.

Depending on how long ago it was it may not be worth mentioning. God busies these things in the deepest see, we shouldn't try to resurrect what has been dwelt with. Think about deleting this info.

It has been a good day for me. Have you ever had flashbacks after watching a movie or reading a book? I had one while watching the Matrix once. "Do you think that is air you are breathing?" I love that line.

You're awesome Luvs . Stay happy and focused and keep God closeby and your Angles will protect and guide you. I would love to have half your strength . Everyone is right...it's not a reflection on you. What you have gone through, and risen above, has made you stronger than many of us.

I have always have had a bad memory even before the drugs. At our meetings we refer to each other as the family so I know where you are coming from. Music as a journal. Hmm. I like that idea. Kind of reminds me of the movie, "The Long Kiss Goodnight" with Samuel L. Jackson. That is a good flashback for me. He sang a little diddy while he was doing stuff to help him remember.

he will never know you, and i don't think you should let that bother you. you have overcome so much, a beautiful person you are, his loss. some people may have tragic stories that revolved around something, in his case, maybe loss of others to drugs, and he's drawn a line in the sand. we all make choices. just be you, we love you!

I should title my book of songs that....

"Music is my Journal".(when its finished that is) I do have a published book of poetry called, "Thoughts from Within", and alot of the poems in there were written as I was becoming clean. Alot of them, are on my profile.

Here is one of them......

IM BAAAAAAAAAACK


Im back from hell
im doing well
I dont use that chit now
cant you tell.

Im in gods grace
look at my face
no site of the devil
not even a trace.

I feel pretty good
just like i should
I knew I could do this
I just knew that I could.

Ill never go back
to smoking that whack
I cant believe I spent so much time
being gacked.

Im back from hell
Im doing well
I dont use that chit now
cant you tell.

by Roberta Murdock

Theres my little ditty!

I have always have had a bad memory even before the drugs. At our meetings we refer to each other as the family so I know where you are coming from. Music as a journal. Hmm. I like that idea. Kind of reminds me of the movie, "The Long Kiss Goodnight" with Samuel L. Jackson. That is a good flashback for me. He sang a little diddy while he was doing stuff to help him remember.

I totally agree with bastet. It's his choice, but it's also his loss.

I just read a really disturbing profile.

This man said that if you have EVER used drugs in your lifetime, DONT MAIL ME.

I was shocked to read this!

If you read my profile, I am very honest, and open,(like always)about the fact that I smoked meth, for a long time.In fact, I had no one, and no programs, so the Minglers were my only support system, and of course they were always there for me, cheering me on in my journey.

I quit cold turkey, just one day said "ive had enough of this", and stopped. I have been clean now for 4 years, and im never going back to that lifestyle again.

PEOPLE DO CHANGE! I quit, I found God, I am a completely different, and reborn person.Ive even been rebabtised! But that man will never know the kind of person that I am now.And I like who I am now, ive grown tremendously!

I remember when I quit, thinking that it was wonderful, that I would be able to date a whole different group of men now. The ones who are clean, and dont use drugs. But this man will never know me, and who ive become...and it makes me feel dirty and sad.

Am I over-reacting, just because of my past??? Whats your take on this??