apprentley im working on addmitting defeat,even thought im taking a "break" from my "boyfriend" i have to say i think i was just trying to be a pain in the *** and be stubborn and was wating everything to work out in my favor.

but when it comes down to it,we never had acutally conversations unles it was about a video game he was playing or a video game that was coming out,dont get me wrong,i love my video games but thats not the only thing to talk about.i would always try to start conversations with him about his day and such but he never said more then a few words to me.

it seems that he only calls me when i tell him that we need a break or i want to leave him then he calls,and talks to me other then that he never calls me.ive one said im leaving him once and told me we needed a break one.

im the kind of person that likes to be taken out on dates and go out and have fun and be soical and i cant do that ive havent seen my "boyfriend" sence july..i dont why i keep calling him my boyfriend but he said i was his girlfrien but he havent even been on a date..

WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?

first hes 21 i just turned 26 and hes 3 hours away,and he aksed me to marr him the 2nd month we were dating BUT I TOLD HIM NO..


i need a hug and alcohol

tole you B4 to dump him. Do it

DO IT TO IT

the whole cow thing was really bad - even tho' he wormed his way back into ur good graces

heya sweet!

i know i know,he did,and im like i like to go on dates not wait around to be taken on a first on and i told him in a letter i wrote him if your this busy you dont have time for me or a girlfriend

i was almost home and then..he agreed,,but i thought about things and wow i went helmet special

{{{{{Bee}}}}}

Cheers. You deserve a break.

yay thanks

aww thanks it feels like it

hugggggssssss

yay thanks!

go find ya a new chico

Not a good scene!

Time for him to move along. And to ask you to marry him after two months?

Shady? Manipulator in training?

It is clear you two do not have a lot in common and he also wants things his way. You say you want to leave him and he gets all, "baby please don't go."

This is him,


nuff said???

other than his pampers pull ups are getting to be too expensive?

well, the Texas rangers are about to win, so that should make you happy

Andy and Sweet,

both of you not-surprisingly are the first people to say hes acting like a child,or a girl for that matter,it feels like i had the balls in the relationships sometimes,because i did tell him on a few occasions if you dont want to be with me then you can leave..

but he said everything was fine..but i wasnt happy..i needed dates and a guy who didnt make me wear the balls!

...woooowhoooo...

Hey there, I may have to saddle up my horse and ride out to regulate on wimpy dates!

Would you wear those special outfit and eat that snack cracker if I asked you too?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KUP5rwVNJko

Did this song explain everything???

oh...omg..god..that video n song are nuts

now just don't relapse!

wow...its like reading the story of my life..seriously..

ok,the way I understand how things are with me, in my situation, is that hes sadistic and Im masochistic, so we are perfect for each other....

alcohol is a wonderful cure all...that and doughnuts.

im scared about relapsing...as much as i say i dont like and trust people for the most part i dont but a part of me wants to believe theres good in some people..

but too much bull crap has gone on even for me to make sensible excuses.yes i know i should broke things off when he asked me to marry him the second month we were dating but he played it off as a joke..but i was being..hopeful?

i wonder if he was control or trying to be controlling,which wouldn't work out to his favor but apprentley with him playing the nice guy when i threatened to leave kinda did.

when he didnt call as much and the affection died off,and i hadnt seen him for a while i was like id rather to save it then just to give up so easily..

stupid me