a bit of 'divine intervention' i guess, after all i have asked for
answers many times, maybe i finally got one;

i love her, it was love at first sight for me, but she doesn't want me,
were friends now, and hopefully always will be, im a lucky guy to still
have her friendship, after all it usually doesnt work out that way, but
i still will always want more, i saw her for the first time in months
recently, i was rejoiced, but felt like i was in limbo the whole time,
that night i went to bed feeling happier than a pig in ****, i thanked
god for bringing her back into my life, but my joy with her is always
followed by sorrow at the thought of possibly never being with her, i
began to cry, i then prayed again saying 'lord, you brought her into my
life, you knew id fall in love with her, if you can make me laugh and
you can make me cry, and you can make me happy or sad, why wont you let
her love me (what the hell right?), then i realized, she does love me,
as a friend, although i didnt care, i was mad at god, i said 'why do you
put me through this hell when all i want is a piece of heaven on earth',
the next day i woke up and found a little piece of paper on my kitchen
counter that my mom must have collected as she loves to collect quotes
and chain letters and stuff, this is what it said:

'God hath not promised sun without rain, joy without sorrow, peace
without pain. But god hath promised strength for the day, rest from the
labor, light for the way, grace for the trails, help from above,
unfailing sympothy, and undying love.

then i realized something, as much as ill always want to be with her,
and maybe someday i will, she hasnt gone anywhere, i once prayed that id
never loose her, and although we didnt talk much for a while, i never
lost her, i tell her all the time 'i love you more than youll ever
know', but now i realize, she probably loves me more than ill ever know.
there is still pain, everyday i find myself almost brought to tears by a
memory or thought of her, and i still cant listen to certain songs,
ironically all my favorites, but everyday i think of her smile and it
heals me, i may not be a subscriber to any religion, but i am religious,
and for the first time in my life, i feel like my prayers have been
answered, for now.

awww...ain't love powerful?

thanx for the post ;)

Wow that's beautiful!!!!!!!!

Hang in there Rob you never know what the future holds
for you.

That is beautiful, Rob -- and you have a very smart Mom!

So, did you stick it under your chin to see if you like butter?

Wow..very nice post....I think we all know exactly how you
feel

awww you are hooked lol i had someone i fell in love with but he wasn't
in love with me i know exactly how you feel. We were friends but he
found someone and fell in love with her he was my best friend, i don't
see him anymore. I never told him how i felt because i knew he didn't
feel the same. Maybe one day she'll see that your the man she wants :)

robk....

One never knows what the future hold, I would never give up hope. And
yet....it cuts you off from moving on...and finding a woman who could
love you as you are, the way you should be loved.

or if it's no use you have no choice but to move on find someone who
deserves someone as devoted as you, you have an advantage over most guys
:) women like devotion just has to be to the right woman

Rob, to be so young but yet so worldly. Your thoughts and your words
are way beyond your age. They are beutiful words with such caring and
love within them. Never give up on that dream you have for when we quit
dreaming we quit living!

Been in the same situation and I chose to move on. TWICE...with the same
person. We are still friends but.....sighhhhhhhh. Of course I'm holding
out for him or someone that will make me feel like he did. I hope you
get what you seek.

Sometimes God has His own reasons for making us wait for things or maybe
not even answer the prayer as we feel it should be answered. He knows
what is best for us, and like children He sometimes needs to guide us in
a different direction for our own good and we don't understand, but
might even years later. I pray you find your love, whether it be her or
someone else to recieve your love.

Smiles!!!!


Karen

thanx everyone for the advice and kind words, i didnt expect such a
reaction lol