i'm quite lost and i'm not sure what to do right now.
getting back into the dating pool for me is.. well super scary. its like jumping into a river of sewage. there had better be a pretty good reason i would even want to jump in. and yet i'm here. attempting to jump on it. being located in IL never helps any either. i think i have better chances finding a mate on Clark St sometimes. but being a single straight mom adds to the whole, "is there the right guy out there for me?" i even got really down on myself for being female and made a whole blog proving how there are literally 2 women per 1 man on this planet. its crazy.

but im tired of the bar scene, where i find men that do a weekend ritual of putting on their beer goggles and going home with the first thing that moves. i find myself getting more and more shallow the more times i get screwed over by that.

and ive even tried the whole, to find a single man in the grocery store deal. i've lived in a grocery store, and about the only thing male that does go into the grocery store is married, because most single men in this area cant cook, so why would they go into a grocery store when they can buy fast food?

ive even tried getting into hobbies that interest me. and well i like playing pool, but cant afford pool halls at $16+ an hour. the only other tables are at bars, and lets face it, we've already been down that isle.

ive even been suggested to go to the bookstore/library. and well, in places where quiet is neccessary, its not likely your going to meet someone and strike up a conversation. meeting someone new is awkward enough, but lets add QUIET to it.

at every mall in a 90 mile radius, (yes ive even tried there) theres nothing but children or women or a combination of both.

then theres the "go to the movie theater" suggestion, and thats a laugh. yeah, go to the movies alone, spend oodles of money i dont have, and watch a movie alone and maybe ill meet someone there?? yeah another - not going to happen - situation.

i hate church. so, i wont even go there. if God really wanted me to go to a church rather then worship Him in my own unique way, he would plant a church in my back yard.

ive even tried this site and the next hoping to find intellegent life there. and really its begining to seem like a joke. im finding everything under the sun, except what im looking for. even guys who are trying to hook up their dog isnt an unusual find.

someone please tell me, am i missing anything? or is there some suggestion out there that i havent tried yet?

to bad u deactivated u account

Girl i feel you 100% on that one im in the same exact boat after my ex bf and me our relationship ended i was all burnt out on it im all do i really ever wanna go down this road again my problem is putting myself out there these dating sites theres just far too many pervs im like wth happened to all the good men and my area i live in aint the best gangs drug addicts/dealers so i keep to myself it just is such crap wth a girl suppose to find a decent man anymore when all you finding is trash and not worth the drama or time i mean do any even exist anymore