Do I Really Appear?

do i really appear to believe i love knowledge.
but my real truth is that i love my own knowledge...
i know i am wrong but what does it take to forget that...
definitely, not having my son taken from me...
oh my soul only rests on the people i see physically..
i know you wonder why i talk to you, mom..
you're the one thing right now ,that if i lost you i would never recover,
but yet i am still ungrateful..
i know i'm just human, but why cant i enjoy life anymore..
the framed picture in my head
is of the family i made
and left behind a long time ago...
does it have to be like this right now?
can i agree to disagree?
worry only sets me free because that's when someone will say calm down....
so i take it as a way to get my way.
is it a good way? ...no..
why do you delight your self with poetry? is it a soul desire or just something you know?
what is self preservation to me?..
it is setting one's self up to appear to continue
on with out the trouble of friendship ..
yes, i know what it means but do i have to be this way?
cant we all for one second respect the areas in our life that is troublesome? ..
yes, maybe that's the answer.
well this is my book
although very uneducated it is mine to tear apart...
just in case you follow,
please be your self mom ....i love you thanx for taking care of me for 22 years..

quitecontrary 8/30/2009
she is my Mary

Very nice and Happy Birthday a day late for your Mary....

Nothing more fulfilling then to know when our children really need us