Robbie I still can't believe you're gone. it's been almost a year and the pain just wont disappear. Everyone says it'll be better if I move on but I can't for some reason...I try and try but theres just this big void in my heart that can't be filled. I sit here and think of when all of us kids were younger and all the silly games we used to play.....the smiles and laughs we shared..the memories we made.They bring a smile to my face for a second and then the harsh reality of you no longer being here hits and the tears just start falling again. Never in a million years did I ever imagine burying one of us kids. I hope one day I'll be able to cope with this. You're always in my heart and you will always be missed. I Love You man

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My eyes filled up with tears as I heard the news
It never occurred to me, how much I could lose
I find myself wishing that it wasn't real
Every time I think about it, pain is all I can feel
Tears fall from my eyes, I can barely see
But my heart tells me that he'll always be with me
I’m glad he feels no pain now-he ...lives in a perfect land
I can still feel the soft touch on my shoulder of his loving hand
I lie in bed and cry at night
And I don’t feel any better in the morning light
And I will love and miss him forever
Until the day we are again together.
Together in that perfect place above,
Filled with caring, sharing and love
But until that day comes- I will wipe my tears away.
And hopefully see him again someday

Hahahahah I confess that I might just be a little teensey bit high right now. lol it was 4:20 somewhere!

i confess im sad and mad at the moment...sad when i read of the sadness others are experiencing but also upset cause some random person (20 years my senior) from my area just emailed me to get a life...dang! and i didnt even have my real pic up....lol BLOCK!!! (and no, its not the age issue, but what about the "if you dont have anything nice to say, shut your mouth (i mean, dont say anything at all)"

What a loser. Don't let that upset you. He's just another perv with nothing better to do than try to bring others down.

thanks Calleigh. You rock! and always know what to say....I just didn't expect it....and I really don't like people who do stuff like that....i know i am giving him his five seconds of fame by talking about it, but i needed to vent...

It's understandable, I have times like that too, when it's like whoa!! really?? wtf??? But then I figure that's their problem not mine, and then I'm pretty much over it. We can't let the pricks win!!!

I like that..and so true.."we can't let the pricks win!"

Have a great night!!!

Mum mum mum mah
Mum mum mum mah

I wanna hold em' like they do in Texas Plays
Fold em' let em' hit me raise it baby stay with me (I love it)
Lovegame and intuition play the cards with Spades to start
And after he's been hooked I'll play the one that's on his heart

Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh,
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(she’s got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(she’s got to love nobody)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p **** her face, p-p-p **** her face
(Mum mum mum mah)

I wanna roll with him a hard pair we will be
A little gambling is fun when you're with me I love it)
Russian Roulette is not the same without a gun
And baby when it's love if its not rough it isn't fun, fun
[Poker Face Lyrics On http://www.elyricsworld.com/ ]
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh,
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(she’s got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(she’s got to love nobody)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p **** her face, p-p-p **** her face
(Mum mum mum mah)

I won't tell you that I love you
Kiss or hug you
Cause I'm bluffin' with my muffin
I'm not lying I'm just stunnin' with my love-glue-gunning
Just like a chick in the casino
Take your bank before I pay you out
I promise this, promise this
Check this hand cause I'm marvelous

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(she’s got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(she’s got to love nobody)

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(she’s got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(she’s got to love nobody)

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(she’s got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(she’s got to love nobody)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p **** her face, p-p-p **** her face
(Mum mum mum mah)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p **** her face, p-p-p **** her face
(Mum mum mum mah)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p **** her face, p-p-p **** her face
(Mum mum mum mah)

I confess that misstina is a Texas Hottie.

I confess that I just might be the beginning of the end of everything.

That can be good or bad, hope it's good, hope everything works out for the best.

MissTina lives in Texas?

I just realized that, yeah she lives in Maine.....

Nope, wrong again

I soooo wish I would hear from my son today...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KyGqtNnH2Kk

Confess

Ok.

I got hit on by Clark Kent tonight. Twice.

Fantasy #48 accomplished!