What to scream,
when you live with demons?
What's there to dream,
when they know all your little feelins?
Do you wanna fight back,
launch a secret and tear filled attack?
How could you even hope, though,
since they can see every place light goes?
Yes, now you can ball those fists,
now you'll be fed all those opportunities
you maybe,mighta,coulda,shoulda missed...
So, what do I scream?
Do I tell you about how it's all lost inside me?
Yeah, well, you know it aint right,
I can't even remember our last dreams
Oh, I wanna fight,
I wanna see that ray shine on down
But it never does, it never did,
since those demons became preoccupied with all your frowns
And I can't help that I didn't lie there,
I can't help that I couldn't just sit here
But I can't scream,
I can't find a way out of your darkened door
I want to dream, I wanted our dream
But I'm coming apart, the stitches hold no more
I can't be what they want to see,
I can't let a demon change all I found in me
Yeah, I'm sure you know,
I won't make a difference
As you've tried oh so hard since
Never could I restore that sh*tty balance

It is interesting to me how we often read a piece differently depending on what is going on in our world. Someone close to me is haunted by demons in the form of schizophrenia ... a young man ... still a teen with his whole life ahead of him ... but he is lost and at the moment, unreachable, as he is not responding to medication yet...

This reminded me of him ... and how helpless I feel ...

Thanks mirror and kcoo3!

this piece is similar to your story, about a friend who takes alot of valium to calm their nerves and anxiety about everything, I didn't want to say the friends name, so I just called him "Val".

I'm sorry to hear about the young man you mentioned. I offer you my hope that he does get better and I thank you for sharing this very personnal information.

Thank you Fusion

There seems to be so much 'emotional overload' for people these days ... and a plethora of ways to numb out ... I sometimes wonder about this so-called 'progress'

I hope your friend finds peace within himself