I lock myself within this place hiding from you, everyone including who I really am.
I fear to know that this me is a temporary skin i wear.
I find myself wanting to hurt people and that's something I cannot allow myself to do.
I find myself wishing to punch through concrete walls to feel physical pain instead of emotional pain.
My heart is on the floor in a thousand pieces waiting for a savior to come and wipe away my tears and mend my broken heart.
The struggle to smile and pretend I'm okay gets harder each passing day.
Sooner or later I will unleash who I really am and I do not know what the outcome of that will be.
However, I do fear that when that day comes I will lose and destroy everything I have accomplished including myself.
Nothing in this world seems to be real, so many times have I been lied to face to face.
I can taste my blood filled with hatred for every empty word you ever said.
I pushed you away and you pushed twice as hard and to be honest I wish you would go away.
I wish your presence just let me be miserable alone instead of feeding off my fears and pain.
I never knew what being weak was until you came.
I never knew what it felt like to feel your heart literally break within your chest til' you.
I never knew what forgetting to breathe was like until you walked into my life.
Promises mean nothing in your eyes and all you do is spit fire.
You make mistakes,yet you retaliate and hold me responsible for your actions.
You make me feel terrible for being upset with you.
I give in when I know I'm right and I can't stop myself.
If I could rip myself from you without thinking twice I'd do it in a split second.
If I could forget that you mean something to me I'd forget who I really am.
Life was better without you I'm sure, yet all I know is you brighten up day.

Love-Hate I'll say. I hope whatever's best will come to you in due time without resulting in your own destruction. Hang in there.

Though angry and depressing, it's very strong writing.

Thank you =)