true to my word and i end at #10?

shame on me.

#11



bad boy good girl

sex

yeah, i said it
she wouldnt let it

happen

she said,
"listen here sailor boy. I am the captain. i will walk your plank
once you clean this ship up."

for a daughter of a pastor
i wouldnt expect her to set such a bad example
at the tender age of 24 she made me realize being a virgin under pressure
can put a wedge between ones sanity and religious views.

for me, the wait was more than 4
years.
it was less than 4
seconds
before i knew what i wanted to do to her.

i didn't think about her thoughts or what she was wearing. i was looking beyond these ordinary distractions.

i knew she wanted total satisfaction. she flirted 4 years. turning every hardcore word into softcore porn.

at first she thought i was jaded.

she kept her distance.

i new.
virgins know what i mean.
in a nice way.
i knew she was imperfectious.

although i couldnt tell her this face to face.

most of the time i was staring at her most private place.

one look led to another.
she liked calling me a perv.

i would retaliate with, "future slut".

she didnt believe me when i said that 8 years ago. but two years ago? she practically begged me to show her my deepest, most thought out, image of us making the most out of humanity without the final result.

she was cleverly disguised this way.

as she knew my eyes shook up and down more noddingly than my head in agreement to whatever she wanted to hear.

i knew i wanted to hurt her,
and when she was finally ready?

i


was


not

intimately

enter
ing

interestedly

in her.


i told her this and she threw herself at me.

i let her cry for me.

and i almost pity F'd her.

but i couldn't do it.

screw it.

i wanted too.

i just wasn't feeling it.

i held my hands behind my back.

the way criminals look right before they get their head shoved
into the backdoor or a car they dont want to be in.

she frowned and sobbed a little more.

i said, "i always knew you would be a 'future whore' love"

"but you took too long. and i didnt have that long to wait."

thinking during the silence i thought.

even if i swallowed a bottle of viagras right now. it would be hard
to want to do this.

my heads dont think the same anymore.

"why, why did we drag this out? why did you want me so bad then
and now you don't care?"

i said, here is something guys don't say..

"i wanted you. i really wanted you. i really wanted you before i really knew i wouldn't want you."

i could see she wanted to say something but she couldnt look at me as she was biting the white off the tips of her nails thinking in regret. so i added,
"you were good. i was bad. now im not who i was. and you think now like i did."

only difference is i wanted to corrupt her. that was my turn-on.

i wanted to scream in her ears, "you dirty daughter of a pastor!!!"

and when i think of this now, i have to laugh. because i was so bad.
and she was so good. and now, if we did do it, it woulndt sound the same to say, knowing i am probably the somewhere around the 20th person to give her a try.

atleast #6 knowing
some of my friends told me she wasn't that great.









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thank you 2KM

i was going to write you the last one now. but im tired. and i want to make it something special that you will really enjoy. i just had to get this one out. the only thing i can say is, i think you will really like the last one i write.