I hate this.

She is tired of me always being around and I worry too much. My ex-wife wanted space too once, thats when she left and cheated. I don't think the new one will but the thought floods my head, I hate this. I have no one else here to hang out with, but tonight I am singing with a band, trying to join, if I do well I'm in and maybe then I can meet people.
I worry about this girl though, we are very different, she reads romance, I read of revolution and the mockery of ourselves. I believe in nothing, she believes in god.
Maybe we aren't gonna work out, but I have grown to loving her. I hate what I have become, I have been sober for about 6 months, I think tonight I need a drink. Tonight I need to forget and let the party animal out to kill.

you need help!!!!!

Do you go to meetings?

You should wait till at least a yeAr into sobriety before a relationship
Ya gotta work on you and your sobriety first

Relax
Remember

It's one day at a time

I don't go to meetings, I just decided to stop before I had a problem. Tonight I want to let loose, I want to have fun.