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Isolation.
Desolation. Activation of a feeling. Looking outward seeing inward and I feel the ghost of you. Father I expected so much more from you. All I got was sorrow in the end. I don't even have a photograph to remember you by but you are there in my mind. Not accepted. dejected I just keep on trying to find an explanation. In my mind I can feel you mother with your finger on my soul. It's all so fucking sick how you just try to control. I thought I could depend upon you but I was only fooling myself. All alone I walk the streets of life and try to leave it all behind but late at night I wake and cry and wish I could've had more. More feeling More love More compassion A good thought to think of. I allowed the dysfunction of my childhood to creep into my soul where anger, fear, and desparaton made themselves a home. Mom and Dad I don't hate you. I don't blame you for my ability not to feel a single fucking thing! Doctor gave me a pill, said it would take it all away. Gotta say the shit didn't work cos at times my father I feel just as dead as you are in your grave. Mother, mother always looking out for yourself. I hope you think of me and cry at night like I do but I doubt it cos you have to feel to cry. All I'm left with are the questions why. Note- I really experienced this shit. My father abandoned me for over 10 years and my mother really tried to fuck me up emotionally. I thank God that good people out there saw my situation and got me the fuck outta there. I got taken away from my mother because of their efforts and I went to live with my grandparents, where I finally got to live a normal life. My life was saved by good people who cared. |
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nice..WILL
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hey jimi i feel you on that one but it was the outher way around for me
and dad was bad |
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Hummm, have to say once again you have touched the heart and I can feel
the hurt. For my mom passed away when I was only a baby, my dad was never bad to us. Instead his way of dealing with things was he became a truck driver going cross country. Therefore, our grandmother took upon herself to pretty much raise my brother and me. In between the times my dad decided to set up what he called a home with different ones. Each time we moved back to be with granny it was nothing but a blessing. |
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