Ok, I’ve been debating whether or not to say anything. I haven’t been on this site for very long. I feel like I’ve gotten to know some of you, though, and consider you my friends. (This is partly a rant and partly to say I won’t be on Mingle2 very often for the next 3-4 months.)

I found out recently that I’m going to be best friends with my oncologist again.
This will be my third date with cancer.
Right now, I’m scared and pissed off. I know what’s coming and I’m NOT looking forward to losing my hair again, puking until I want to scream, being too weak to clean the apt....aaah, the list goes on.
On top of this, I still have 3 portraits I have to finish before I start chemo and I can’t concentrate. I lost both my mom and my grandma to cancer. The rational part of me says, “Ok, you know the drill. You can get through this and beat this again.” The scared part of me wonders if this third time is gonna be the one I can’t beat.
And...I know this isn’t rational or even something I should be worrying about right now (bear with me, my mind’s been going 500 miles an hour in 12 different directions) but another part of me wonders, “Who’s gonna want to date (marry?) someone with that much medical baggage?”

Ok, I think I’m done ranting for the moment, lol. See you all in the threads....if a little less frequently.

I am sorry to hear this...you will be in my thoughts and prayers...I totally understand what you are going thru.....if you need to chat just message me...I understand....

Just sending you some loving thoughts....

When you find the right one for you - medical baggage won't be an issue. He will love you for who you are, your personality, your warmth, your smile and your genuine love for him.

Love and Light

I worked with a heart surgeon who married one of his patients.
Not exactly 'low risk',
You take time to be well.

Peace and prayers




p.s. my Mom beat it 3 times.

best wishes.

My prayers and thoughts are with you

Much blessings to you...

So sorry to hear that!

Godbless you, may he be with you through all of this, I feel for you really, I am awaiting the results of a test to find out if I have Lukemia or not and I am facing possible cervical cancer as well, you will definatly be in my prayers. HUGS and more HUGS, bless your heart

I'll be honest here and say I'm not the best at consoling others, mainly because I really just don't know what to say to help, but I really hope you find the strength to pull through this and I wish you the best of luck. Please know that I will be thinking of you Sweets.

Thanks everyone. Man, I can't believe I'm sitting here tearing up at your replies. I think I'm feeling more lonely about it this time cuz Dad's in another state, sis is going through a narcissistic phase, and my friends living nearby are going through some rough stuff of their own.
Thank you all for your thoughtful replies.

prayers for you

take care and always remember you have family here

prayers to u. cancer is a hard battle just dont give in god will light the way.

SweetanFunny you vent anytime you feel like Darlin. Got a feeling there are a lot of us that will be more than glad to give you a shoulder to lean on.

Sounds like you have had a really tough time with this Third Time's a Charm bout with the Big C starting out. Somehow I think you are going to get through this and do just fine. I am hearing more and more people who are finding and conquering the "C" more than once because they find it earlier and have better medications and procedures to fight with almost every day. I know several people that missed no work they got through so well.

I don't know when your last fight was but if you haven't had a conversation with your Doctor you may be pleasantly surprized. With new medications the side effects have been greatly reduced. I am not saying it is a picnic but it might be a lot better than before. I know all the people who care about you will sure hope so.

If you feel like you need to prioritize your energy and cut down on your Mingle time you do what you need to do. You might want to check back on this thread though.

I got a feeling that you have enough friends that will keep bumping it along until you get through this. You can come here and tell us how you are doing or have your privacy but you got a shoulder here. Any of you all feel the same be glad to help keep it going.
HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS

I have to say that to me one of the greatest injustices in this world is the suffering of some of the kindest, sweetest, and funny people i know.

It isn't fair and it hurts.

I have enjoyed every post i've seen so far tonight from you SweetnFunny.

Some posts have brought tears of laughter to my eyes, where some have been enlightening.

I really hope you do well through all this and come out ok. I have faith that you will.

Try and focus on what you need and stay strong. I know i'll miss your posts!!

and above all else... come back to us!!

You know.........I dont care how many times I have something........I will beat it.......nothing will beat me down!!! and neither will you!!!

a short verse from my writings.
the shadows of dark are beating on my walls, it feels as if i am sucombing to their antagonizing weight. with the last hair of breath bfore the collaps there is a cry from within the soul. a path alights n there is a voice "go my child, every step is a triumph over tribulation" there is a momentary escape from the darkness, an pain.

never give up, god is there. it does seem astrange all the god ppl live in suffering, my theory is that it is satin trying to blind us n lure us to his abyss through self pity, hate, an illusions saying god isn't there.