Here they come to comfort.....

Look how they walk so unsure of their motives.

Inflict a spirit of dumbness on my lips, I must not go back
any further.

Their mouths keep moving, but all i hear is men chewing on
tinfoil.

I grind my teeth in anger I'm Gnashing !

My mouth fills up with dust, I can't swallow, there's a lump in my throat I can't breath.

I lay mortally wounded like a soldier in the jungle.

Rapid breathing and anxious thoughts.....God take my life!

No ! ! Let me suffer a little while longer.

All around me the knives are thrust in, they are so sharp and skillfully driven I don't even notice till they start twisting.

Right in front of my face courteously smiling... Spare me this foolishness.

I'm all alone fending off death on a battlefield.

My pupils dilate pitch black like a solar eclipse, with an imprisoned corona behind a desperate contradiction of the hour at hand... Nonsense ! Nonsense ! I don't want to hear it.

Father have them nail me up and pierce me already.

Perhaps the physical pain will out-weigh the crushed down, beaten, torn and trampled heart beating irregularly in my chest trying to escape.

The bass of it gives me a headache.

What is the real truth God ?

What in the depths of the grave is going on ?

Did i somehow pray for this ?

Did even Job ask you what you know is wailing from my heart right now ?

Give me strength, my eyes are weak and swollen and i cannot see the forest through the trees,

Just the heat waves blistering up from the desert seas.

What have I done God ?

My sins are ever-always in my thoughts.

See how i sit in silence and wait patiently God ?

Do you notice me shuffling in anticipation ?

Has the race already began ?

Am I standing here stupid at the starting line ?

Or am I paralyzed ?..... Too scared to cross the finish line.

Deafen my ears to the nonsense around me,

Blind my eyes to injustice.

You have mercy on whom you choose to have favor with.

It's your job to correct me oh LORD.

Don't wait to long, despair is over-taking me.

But your truth is seeded in my heart and I know better.

I am a seed on a rocky path.

Spring up a mighty oak tree to shade how exposed I am.

Lure the vultures to your branches and give them rest, they seek to devour me.

Bring me mighty roots to hold me to your purpose.

Lord let my testimony of perseverance be an altar call of conviction to lead others to repentance.

If I am in the wrong oh Lord, drive me to my knees and push my face into the ashes and my lips will utter tongues of forgiveness.

I have been reduced to fading coals.

God breath life on me and rekindle my fire.

Praise God I am troubled on my path.

When i do more than conquer, I will be assured a place in Heaven.

Reward me according to YOUR will god and thrust me up[on the shoulders of accomplishment.

Let them all see your hand in my life.
Garrett Couch 1/10/07

( 1st Peter says: "Be glad about this, even though it may be necessary for you to be sad for awhile, because of the many kinds of trials you suffer. Their purpose is to prove that your faith is genuine. But after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who calls you to share his eternal glory in union with Christ, will Himself perfect you and give you firmness, strength, and a sure foundation. To Him be the glory, power, forever Amen!")

This was a bit long, but still worth reading.
Now as for me, I LIVE THIS LIFE here.
To be all I can to others,,,ALL.....And GOD lives in me as I through him..
But I WILL NEVER EXPECT nor feel I KNOW,,,that I am going to heaven. And truly don't LIVE to see, nor reach another life.
I live to carry the Bible with me in a humble manner and live to be judged NOT just on my judgment day with the LORD, but to be judged HERE, NOW, by anyone or all..
Many people believe they already have a SEAT in heaven, and I will NEVER second guess what HE may tell me before we part our first talks together eye to eye.
If you truly LIVE this life to be in his eyes daily.
Then you live to know better than most. HE'S WITH YOU!
I will never PRETEND to LIVE for the forever life of eternity.
I PRAY, and follow the Ten commandments. Enough said.

amen to that brudda. Where as my goal is eternal with Christ in heaven, my feet are still planted here on earth. I don't try to be a speirdo (spiritual weirdo) I live my life daily under the guidance of the Holy Spirit and am convicted when i make wrong choices. As in your other post you may see i have corrected the caps thing as far as grammar goes, to me is irrelevant. For those who come to nit-pick trivial things means they missed the point of the writing. I don't tell artist how to stroke their paint brushes Thanks for reading and inputting man.

And the people said... AMEN!

Really emotional

Lots of power

Can feel the knives twisting too sometimes...must remember....God Loves and Forgives as well..

Thanks dude!

thanks for reading lurches sis and jason i appreciate it

great write brother

"Spring up a mighty oak tree to shade how exposed I am"

To me this is a powerfull writing of a nature I have never experienced. Did this happen to you?

Or are you just creative?

Thankyou I needed a reminder for the ever cursing me 'Why me' question. There is blazing Light in your writes.

Thank you mountain and teddybear.
This was written during a time of significant change in my life, When i write I usually start with a personal emotion pick up a pen start at the beginning and when i get to the end ...stop. ;) Very rarely do i edit, i just start writing and release whats hurting inside to paper. If you like these i have two more poste "A tale worth a 1000 words "and "The Rescue" Look em' up and feel the writing.