The deaf silence fills the room ..I can almost feel the wall are going to crack, because the silence can be powerful, more powerful than sound , just stop moving for a minute and you can hear your own thoughts.

You begin to hallucinate as your mind runs through hundreds of flashes of your memory and you hear laughter and talk, people moving and everything looks so colorful.
Your mouth moves and repeat words you have said before at a moment you never forget, and you try to find out these words meant as much as you wanted to mean it at the time, perhaps you said it wrong or used the wrong tone,so you repeat them and you have the moment front of you like a hologram, a ghost image of the past and you try to understand why you just remembered this moment, what made you think of it. You begin to feel uncomfortable, feel like something chocking you, try to adjust your shirt around your neck and you realize it was loose anyway. You say those words again and still can't understand what happened and why, try blaming something..."maybe the setting wasn't right...maybe I just looked different that day....maybe I shouldn't have said it..maybe ..... maybe I did everything I could do and there was other things....I can't repeat the feeling , I keep trying but it just ...feel so out of place. I'm nothing like that, that's not what I am now..I was someone else now...I can't believe this...

Then something moves..something makes a noise.. Outside? Inside?.. It was just the wind..

Where was I? ...Oh yeah..that feeling..what was it..nevermind..I'm awake again.

Yeah, the silence is more powerful than noise...it reminds you..that you are alone.

Amen brother i feel your pain!!!!!!!

Silence can be deafening alright ... especially from the ones we care about ...

Wow, silence, it has been many years since I have heard silence, true silence. But I remember how loud silence can be, I remember it because it was strange how I could hear it when I was a kid and teenager. It happens especially for some people in the winter, i don't really know why that is, I guess depression and the weather have alot to do with it, I don't know. Wow, I would love some nice decent silence these days, however, I am used to noise now, not sure what I would do without it. besides, my brain is never silent, its a forever helicopter of whirling thoughts and half memories and half ideas i can't decipher most of the time. I remember emotions alot, its like being stabbed with a million emotions at once and trying to filter them all and sort them out. Weird I know, LOL whatever, goodnight, great peice. hugs

When our minds try to recreate a moment-asking ourselves why am I thinking about this...I think it is because it was something-even if the something wasn't good. The trick is listening for the answers in the silence.

Truly heartfelt write-thanks for sharing