It's been a while
since I have smiled
I am sorry it's hard to commit
It's so different to me
to be happy
when for so long I've felt like sh1t

and I know you deserve better than me
I hope you know not everyone sees me laughing
I've shown myself to you usually I just hide
You're a good reason not to commit suicide

And the blues are much brighter
in the sky and in Tom Waits voice
The sun is much brighter
Now I can see that i have a choice
I am choosing to live again
Standing up for myself
You've been a good friend
By pulling me out of my hell

I've turned from my pride
And stepped back outside
It really can be beautiful to exist
it feels like I'm high
or that maybe I've died
when I hold you or when we kiss

And I know I don't always say the right words
and I speak out loud as the thought occur
usually I am silent hiding black
I'm feeling again since you brought my soul back

In time your joy and happiness will come back!!

Nice Write.