here i sit nearly at the end of my limits. each day is a constant struggle to have the

will to live. part of me is dead inside and the other not far behind. i feel the

darkness slowly overtaking me minute by minute ,hour by hour, day by day. ive become

so tired im almost to the point where i dont want anymore heart ache, anymore pain,

ive lived through enough where does it end! i feel so lost, so alone. ive met many

nice people and i have great friends but they dont fill the void that is inside me

right now. this is not how life is supposed to be. i know my quality and that i am a

good man and a moral person why must i suffer endlessly. i sit wondering what my

purpose is and i just dont have any answers anymore. i thought at one time that i was

in the right place. now im not so sure anymore. its hard to put into words the pain

that i feel right now. soon someone is coming to see me and it feels like one last

chance for me. im so scared of the future and what i might hold for me. i dont know

if i can take any more rejection. i wonder at times why am i not good enough for some.

is it not enough for me to be just and moral. loyal and loving. i try so hard to keep

myself from getting my hopes up this time. she is so soft and beautiful. sweet and

caring. is she the one i have been waiting for? only time can answer this. is it

meant to be that we have meet in one of the worst times in my life? weve never met

face to face and yet she tells me that she cares for me. is it possible? words

however simple can be so powerful. can raise the hope of the sick and weary. my day

brightens when i hear her voice and gaze upon her picture. i dont want to let go of the

feeling that it gives me. its been far too long since i shared my life with someone. i

miss the intimate moments that i shared. the time alone sharing my love and my

feelings with someone. i have only one day to wait till i meet her. i try not to hope

to much but as the time approaches i can only wonder is she the one ive been waiting

for?

nice write..beautiful

Nice write and welcome...

Welcome and very nice write...I wish you well