the differences between carelessness and affection

Love. A lady who knows how to really love.....
there is nothing more wonderful on the earth...haha is that corny??
well i don't give a shit:)

Andrew

I'm not afraid! I will smudge my so far clear reputation here as at
least a 'not-bad' guy...i must admit i was very young...but okay....me
and my gf brokeup, and i immediately worked my way into her best friends
life, and soon she was my girlfriend...oh man how mean, i broke up their
friendship of like 8 years, and i knowingly fueled and fueled more the
intense fire of hatred she had for me. Man, and you know this
girlfriend i had was quite emotional, and oh man i knew every single
button to push and then push harder....WOW IS THAT EVIL OR WHAT?? damn,
yeah that was a dark day for andrew foster...ooo terrible. But see
after having caused so much suffering on purpose, i got to really feel
the guilt of being so cruel. I could see the agony on her face, like
the hurt in her eyes- especially since we loved each other so much, and
i did love her. but oooo see theres where...what is it again?...that
fine line between love and the coldest hatred....ooo yes. It took me
like two years to make amends to her for being so fucked up, and whats
worse, i dont even remember why i was so determined to hurt her in the
first place....but hey, learning learning...sometimes its painful, but
then after its really useful. i understand now- that i was an idiot
before- whoops!
-Andrew

hmmmm i was 16 years old. You know I'm lucky because it was so
innocent, and in that way it was really pure and beautiful. It makes me
happy remembering how secretly special it was between me and her. We
loved each other so so much, and we both made the decision we would make
love together....it was almost metaphysical, i swear.... The secret
specialness, like the sheer sanctity of it; it was like no one could
ever know the power and intensity of our body energies meeting and then
becoming integrated. Its was like we were one in body and soul, just
for a brief second...(whew) oh man, what a memory. haha! damn no shit
it was dynomiiiite!

-Andrew

Vanchau! the man! hey dude, so when i try to delete old emails: After
checking the box next to the email, then clicking the delete button,
nothing happens!! hmmm just thought id let you know. Thanks gangsta

AF

Princess...Hmmm she would be so beautiful, just the way she is and not
even know it. She would be someone who I would communicate with about
everything...she would be able to tell me about her heart and all of its
delicate hidden secrets...we would be lovers, and we would be
friends...I'm not a 'list writing' person. I don't have some set
criteria, or a freakin blueprint focusing on small unimportant things.
What is truly significant is the content of the heart; it is to give
freely from the very core, unbound, and playfull. It is to be honest
with those precious feelings. I see people pretending, guys "dealing
with" their women. Its really a shame that two people can live with one
another for years and never really know each other. Love, when it is
truly authentic is not something that flowers by way of money, or
status, or any other petty things...and yeah they are petty. When it
comes down to it; the experience of love, given and recieved is really
the only thing worth anything in this whole world. That is the primary
goal for all of us. And people will go on, looking, looking, for that
completion, to fill a missing 'something'. Some think its sex, and
although good, it does not replace authentic love. Haha it seems like it
for about a day, then you go right back to empty. All of the insanity
that we make for ourselves is rooted in our pursuit for genuine
happiness and completion. man! this must be the minstrel-dreamer in me
talking! this is a profound question to ask though....we should all
really look inside of ourselves, deeply and honestly to find the real
answers. She would be so beautiful though...

Andrew

Wow! You know maybe its that we are such sweet dreamy lovey people we
all are drawn to one anothers minstrel songs!
I happen to be a proud Dreamer-Minstrel as well...nifty test. I think
Mr.Andrewww set the standard, because now were all going to have to take
this test! I'm anxious to see what other interesting personalities show
up... Cool test! Now go and take it!!!! Right now!!!!

-Andrew F.

Hahaha oh yes!!! Lilia "who-feels-tear-in-her-heart-cause-her father
was the president of Sudan blah blah blah..." oh man, I went deeper and
replied as if i was an idiot accepting the offer. Her proposal is that
she wire $10,000,000 into my bank account and that I call some place in
Africa so she can come and be my wife. hahaha oh man, some people
really just boggle my mind. Yeah also watch out for someone named
"Furturne Johnson" haha she sent me the same email, with dead dad and
all. (%haha she only has $5,000,000 for me though, haha I'd rather stick
with Lilia though...shes got the ten mil... (this is so amusing for me)
Everyone beware!! There are idiots afoot!

-Andrew

I also discovered that it hurts when we love and arent loved back

(13words:) but they are all necessary!)

~Andrew

hmmm ive seen all different ages, haha from 18 to like hmm i think 60!
Im 22 myself. jeez i think we need more people on the site
though...everyone is so far away from each other! hmm we need some LA
folks on here! i think its still really new though so who knows.. were
the beginners, haha or the guinea pigs...either way i think kays right
about age. its really about wisdom....there are people who maybe be
young but sometimes their souls are wayy older....

andrew

Hey thanks you guys for setting this thing up for all us cheap and
lonely people...haha! even if theres a catch or something, this is
probably the best were gonna do as far as free potential love and
communication without monthly bank account withdrawls etc. so hey
thanks for being purveyors of human development and community. You
rock!