I Watched You

I watched you, but you didn't see me.
I was placing every memory of you
Firmly in my mind.
Each smile warmed my heart.
I watched as your lips moved
Not hearing a word, just watching

I wondered to myself,
Lost in thoughts of you.
Why do I love this man?
Is this what love feels like?
Have I never known real love?
The feeling was new to me.
Perhaps it was even foreign.

Many thoughts crossed my mind.
Maybe I've never experienced this.
The others never felt this way.
Was it that I was not open to love?
Or was it not offered to me.
And yet, there was love in my heart
That was not returned.

I felt it had been taken from me.
A gift without a thank you
Perhaps it was a gift thrown to the trash
And my heart went along with it.
Lessons learned and scars to the heart
But yet, the heart keeps on looking
Ever searching for love, that one true love.

Written and Edited by DLD

Thank you

Goodbye….
She looked deep into his eyes as if she was showing him her aching soul. Tears streamed down her face as she faked a small smile although she felt her heart breaking. She knew it was over, but her heart kept begging her not to let go.
This was not a decision made without soulful thought; it had tortured her mind over time. Their love had died a dreadful death over time, she had tried to repair it, he had tried, but there seemed no resolve. It appeared they had both changed and changed beyond the other. Distance had taken possession of the closeness they once shared.
She had tried to cling to the love they once shared, but she was clinging to a thread of what used to be and hadn’t returned. Grief of a love lost had replaced a loving heart. Grief had placed many scars upon her heart; her heart became a lonely place searching for his love.
Her lips wished to scream I love you, but the words would not release. It was over, it was time to say good bye.
DLD