MzWizard, your very personal and nasty,you will get your just deserves, for your nastiness to people whose situations you don"t even know about.,and for the record I did not choose her, I prefered an older partner at the time,she convinced me to take her on because she was into a lot of bad things at the time,one being a slapper as she was slapping it about that much she wanted me to change her ways,add I did for 13yrs.
I WILL NOT REPLY TO ANY OF YOUR NASTY POSTS.BYE

MzWizard,all I can say to your last remark is, why have you been on here for 2yrs? looks like youv"e been left.

When retribution has been served to those, I will revert back to my former loving self.

This was written on 25/12/08,before TO BE OR NOT TO BE, I moved on to retribution.

MzWizard & Sharris,Maybe you would prefer my pre- retribution writes such as thiswhen I didn"t know for sure her final infidelity,this in my moping stage, when the advise to me on here was to move on with my life.I did.

" I NEED SOMEBODY TO LOVE "

Why do I sigh, when I look in your eyes, of your picture, I keep,in my heart.
Why do I cry, when I gave you my life, and you promised, till death do us part.

I don"t know why, you left, but you did, and now we have broken apart.
Only YOU, knew why, when you did, and you knew, it would break my heart.

If only I knew, that your love wasn"t true, as it was with our very first kiss.
If only I knew, that your love wasn"t true,for now, its your love, that I miss.

Sitting around now, all day on my own, never a call, from you, on the phone.
I do really miss you,so cute,so small, I need someone, to love, and not be alone.

But I do really miss, your affection, lots of kisses, and the abundance, of love.
When, we first met, I thought you, were sent to me, from the heavens above.

I, now have realised, living with me, wasn"t easy,easy for you.
Me being so much older, and set in my ways, as well too.

But, I did try to conform, with your views, on the way we should live our lives.
And still, I did not take heed, of your warnings, I failed you, I was not wise.

I did my best, for your welfare, so our love, to grow ever, so strong.
I thought it had,especially, when the children, all came along.

I look at them now, every day,even more so, than I ever, did before.
But I look at them now, at their pictures, their pictures, on the wall.

Its wonderful to see, the you, the me, and the sparkle, in their eyes.
Their beaming smiles that radiate, to me, to you, is their love, its in disguise.

But, every time I look, I can always feel, theres always something, missing.
Then, I very soon realise, its the laughter, the crying, the hugs, and the kissing.

Theres, one word, they always said, that I never, hear no more, dad, dad, dad.
Its no wonder, why I am always, very unhappy, distraught, and feeling sad.

I really need somebody, I need somebody to love.
I really need somebody,I need somebody to hug.

I think of the time, we were all, doing fine, our love flowed and ebbed like a tide.
I think of the time,when I gave,you,the ring and said,one day,will you be,my bride

We were so happy, both of us were,why, did our love forever disappear, and wash all away, as though down, through the drain.

Can"t get your love, right out of my head, but, I must get it out, out of my brain.
If I don"t get it out, I will end up, completely mad, completely mad, insane.

I really need to find somebody, find somebody to love,
Find somebody to kiss, find somebody to hug,

I lay awake, every night now, can"t sleep, nice and tight, like I did when you were, lay next to me.

Theres always so much on my mind now, can"t take it, right out, and away, so that I finally can realise, what must be, must be.

I do, really need somebody, somebody to stop me, from being so sad.
I do, really need somebody, somebody to stop me, from going mad.

I"m grieving I know, its because you, had to go, when you said,your love for me wasn"t there anymore.

I really need somebody, a new somebody, will soon give me the cure.
I know I need somebody, a new somebody, will love me, more and more.

And when she comes, comes to me, with all her love, in her arms, in her arms, for me, I will hear her knock,knock,knock at the door .

I will then, be happy again, take her love, till the end of days, and never, want you again in my life, from then, to evermore.

All the pain I have suffered, will be finally gone, and I will be happy again I know.
I will soon have my new somebody, and when she"s here, she will never go.

I just wait for that day, when she comes here to stay, I will be, so happy and glad.
I will never again, be so distraught with the pain, and never again be sad.


RAYMOND.25/12/08

Well I thought this post might start a lot of discontent,but it still makes me feel better to know that the wrongers to me will soon realise,do unto others as they would not do unto you, will be their downfall.I"m a lot happier now.

RAYMOND is back.All the writes I have posted in the past were of my life,my trials and tribulations,my love and forgiveness in the past,but now my latest write with vengence in my heart,retribution for those who have wronged me.

" TO BE OR NOT TO BE "

" TO BE OR NOT TO BE "?

That is the question I ask myself, as did Hamlet.
Whether its more noble in the mind to suffer and accept the tortures and wrongs done to I, by the most loved by I, and knowing of their false love and affection, and all that in my life did I give and do for them, for their most well being and gratification.
In my mind, I did see the trust I gave to my most loved one being abused, but had the love for her still glowing in my heart to forgive, and again forgive, but then, did allow my love each time to slowly dwindle away.

" DOES SHE STAY OR DOES SHE GO "?

This question I now asked myself.
If she stays with false love to I, and dwindling love to her, is not the answer to this question, her pledge to I, to stay till I die was broken with her infidelity, she must go. I will suffer, when she goes, my children will go too, my now most precious.
Their minds will be poisoned against I, to satisfy her new found affairs, their absence from I and the poison, will make their love for I, grow weaker, and my absence from them will make my love for them, dwindle away, this I know from
my first 5 children, with my first love, then my wife of 24years.

SO THEY GO, the children all love her way,and what my minds eye did see,is true.
I suffer the tortures, from those, so ungrateful,of all my gifts of love and prosperity. They were made poor, when I the giver to them, was now unkind, I am now the ex-partner and father of poisoned minds.
Yet now, to have loved and lost love, and nothing else to lose that I had cherished the most, I need not suffer anymore, but accept the tortures and wrongs done to I, by the ones once most loved by I.
I fight against that ocean of troubles, and endow them, and their, now most loved ones, with their own, sea of troubles and miseries.
They all live in glass houses and should not have thrown stones at I, the most
honest, trustworthy,and most of all, more law abiding of them all.
Unlike them I have never cheated with others, never cheated or abused the laws of the social system or defrauded it.
My mind knows too much of them all,and now my conscience is clear to fight back
and let the sea of troubles, now overwhelm their new, and what will be their short lived new happiness without me, it will be turned into the sufferings and tortures they bestowed on me, now to be a reality for them.
Let my revenge, be in the shape of the "Fist of the Law", with vengence, be swift and sweet , to strike them down to give them, their justly deserves.
All these thoughts in my mind, and their sedition of the social laws which any decent person lives by, but not by them, now will be their downfall to their ruination and misery. Whilst I in my joy of their sufferings, I will regain my happiness, but hoping that she the most loved by I, will reform her future ways in life, and not to be a breeder of sinners like herself, whose mother had bred into her, the bad seed, this I hope because I cannot impress my code of decency to my children anymore, the eldest told I, to them, I no longer exist.
I am now revengeful, but proud of the way I have lived my life, even though I have been an arrant fool to the two most loved women in my life.
Even so before I die, I still give myself hope to find that true soul-mate.
Soon, I hope that my suffering and tortures will be blown away by the winds of time, and replaced by sun scorched passion, much love and happiness.
This unloved situation I was thrust into two times in my life, between 1964 and now today 26th February 2009.

The start of their troubles and unhappiness has today began for her new lover she left me for, when she cheated and abused my trust, under my nose, with the father of my neices children, whose children are my childrens equivalent nephews, who stayed and played at my home.

My writings will continue this saga with all the joy in my life, and the unhappiness in theirs.

FOOTNOTE.
If you the reader have a negative opinion of me and see me as a nasty, unforgiving person and not an honest, loving, forgiving person, then you are "WRONG"
I can only forgive so much of the unfaithfulness, ungratefulness, and suffering and pain of insincere love, that has been afforded to me, by the two most loved mothers of my 8 children in, 44years of my wasted family life so far, as I see it.
Even though I realize I must take some of my actions in the past years as part of the reasons for both partners to leave, but not for them to be unfaithful.
As I am a firm believer in "What goes around comes around", their come-uppance
will soon be upon them all.

If you the reader still have the same opinion of me, do you really think I would care, "NO, I WOULD NOT CARE", this is MY life, I live it with respect for decent people only, but if your opinion of me is still that I am a nasty, unforgiving person,
then you in my opinion have the same morals in life as those I have written about, and if not already, you one day too will also get, your just deserves.

RAYMOND.26/02/2009

txsGal3333,Thanks fof your kind message,but its not her I miss any more,its the children,not seen them since christmas day.,and all there pictures are on the wall.

Thanks,directandwrite,iam4u&MsWizard

Sorry about the tears, but I was in tears whilst writing this,and still every time I read it.
" I NEED SOMEBODY TO LOVE"

Why do I sigh, when I look in your eyes, of your picture, I keep,in my heart.
Why do I cry, when I gave you my life, and you promised, till death do us part.

I don"t know why, you left, but you did, and now we have broken apart.
Only YOU, knew why, when you did, and you knew, it would break my heart.

If only I knew, that your love wasn"t true, as it was with our very first kiss.
If only I knew, that your love wasn"t true,for now, its your love, that I miss.

Sitting around now, all day on my own, never a call, from you, on the phone.
I do really miss you,so cute,so small, I need someone, to love, and not be alone.

But I do really miss, your affection, lots of kisses, and the abundance, of love.
When, we first met, I thought you, were sent to me, from the heavens above.

I, now have realised, living with me, wasn"t easy,easy for you.
Me being so much older, and set in my ways, as well too.

But, I did try to conform, with your views, on the way we should live our lives.
And still, I did not take heed, of your warnings, I failed you, I was not wise.

I did my best, for your welfare, so our love, to grow ever, so strong.
I thought it had,especially, when the children, all came along.

I look at them now, every day,even more so, than I ever, did before.
But I look at them now, at their pictures, their pictures, on the wall.

Its wonderful to see, the you, the me, and the sparkle, in their eyes.
Their beaming smiles that radiate, to me, to you, is their love, its in disguise.

But, every time I look, I can always feel, theres always something, missing.
Then, I very soon realise, its the laughter, the crying, the hugs, and the kissing.

Theres, one word, they always said, that I never, hear no more, dad, dad, dad.
Its no wonder, why I am always, very unhappy, distraught, and feeling sad.

I really need somebody, I need somebody to love.
I really need somebody,I need somebody to hug.

I think of the time, we were all, doing fine, our love flowed and ebbed like a tide.
I think of the time,when I gave,you,the ring and said,one day,will you be,my bride

We were so happy, both of us were,why, did our love forever disappear, and wash all away, as though down, through the drain.

Can"t get your love, right out of my head, but, I must get it out, out of my brain.
If I don"t get it out, I will end up, completely mad, completely mad, insane.

I really need to find somebody, find somebody to love,
Find somebody to kiss, find somebody to hug,

I lay awake, every night now, can"t sleep, nice and tight, like I did when you were, lay next to me.

Theres always so much on my mind now, can"t take it, right out, and away, so that I finally can realise, what must be, must be.

I do, really need somebody, somebody to stop me, from being so sad.
I do, really need somebody, somebody to stop me, from going mad.

I"m grieving I know, its because you, had to go, when you said,your love for me wasn"t there anymore.

I really need somebody, a new somebody, will soon give me the cure.
I know I need somebody, a new somebody, will love me, more and more.

And when she comes, comes to me, with all her love, in her arms, in her arms, for me, I will hear her knock,knock,knock at the door .

I will then, be happy again, take her love, till the end of days, and never, want you again in my life, from then, to evermore.

All the pain I have suffered, will be finally gone, and I will be happy again I know.
I will soon have my new somebody, and when she"s here, she will never go.

I just wait for that day, when she comes here to stay, I will be, so happy and glad.
I will never again, be so distraught with the pain, and never again be sad.


RAYMOND.25/12/08

very touching.

nice write.

very nice.

O.K., 35TOO,A FERGUSSION OVER IS,OR,WAS,A TV.
BUT THE TRACTOR IS KNOWN IN U.K.AS THE MASSEY FERGUSSION,IF YOU"SAID THAT,I"D HAVE KNOWN.

Thanks Seakolony

Thanks Mystique42

sorry 35too I"m english I don"t understand your last post.

NO....WE ARE NOT ALLOWED THOSE IN ENGLAND OR I WOULD HAVE SHOT ONE DOWN....35TOGO.

and these are for you flame1cutie.

WHEN THE " WINGS OF LOVE " PASS YOU BY


You look, for your true love, each and every day.

You hope, very soon, she will come your way.

Everything you do, is always on your OWN.

Cooking, eating, and watching tv. all alone.

Searching the internet, and the streets, for your treat.

Hoping, you will find her, and both of you meet.

So many, beautiful women, I see and view every day.

But, not yet found the one, that I could love, and take away.

Away, from her, misery, unhappiness, and more.

All she, has to do, is one day, walk through my door.

She will, never regret it, she will have all that she needs.

In love,honesty,sincerity, affection,total devotion, and only good deeds.

Why hasn"t cupids arrow, once again pierced my heart.

With the final partner, before death do I part.

The wings of doves, I see every day, time, after time.

But, she never appears, the love, that, will be mine.

So, next time, the "WINGS OF LOVE" come my way.

Bring me my true love, my true love, to stay.

RAYMOND.27/01/09

These are mine.