I understand. sincerly thank you for your input.

I hear what you are saying Mr. Music. I did come here to ask advice and I appreciate your input. If I wasn't having doubts I wouldn't have asked the question...although I was more concerned over the off again on again thing rather than the age difference. I was caught up in the whole excitement of the happenings. Taking a 16 year break from dating to raise ones children as a single parent after being left alone can leave ones self a little vulnerable to loser syndrome. This woman gave me a wake up call I much needed.I am not persuing her. I let it die. My point here tonight was after her contacting me on a personal level again. You see she lives two houses down from me i see her and her parents almost every day.

My son is 20 and my daughter is 17.

This is true, and the result is I have two grown children who I love and love me in return. I regret nothing. I just am ready for a little me time.

This of course is very true, 16 years sitting home was no picnic.

God I love the internet!!

Thank you, and I have consulted with my closest friends and all they would offer is how much I need to get out and date. Take things slow.. I just worry they say what they think I want to hear. The internet however is a brutal cold yet sometimes caring ear to bend!

Seriously thanks to you all for letting me talk with you about this.

I hear you. It's just getting this e-mail Friday and all after not seeing her for a while. I just am confused.

I'm confused. Honestly....I don't know what I feel, I am after all on a dtaing site. After a divorce 16 years ago and spending those 16 years raising my son and daughter and not dating she kind of made me feel like I was wanted again. I don't know. just confused

OK now I am feeling bad. 13 years old? Am I in that bucket? Holy **** are you saying I am a pervert? I mean the subject is I am embarrassed. Maybe I shouldn't have brought it up. I can break it off. We are not talking marriage and we are not sleeping together anymore, just on and off dates. Am I a bad person? Maybe I am just trying to justify what I know is wrong.

In regards to her parents like I stated in the beginning I have known them for around 23 years. They encouraged it. Her mom thinks I am good for her... Hell I don't know!!

Believe me I know I am not the complete innocent here!!! I admit it made me feel good to walk into Spencers or Gamestop at the mall with this gorgeous girl hanging on my arm or holding my hand. Creepy yeah I probably should be shot!

I see what you're saying. So is it ok to spend time with her? I mean she is a gamer like me and we have so much to talk about. I just don't want to be pegged as a weirdo around the neighborhood. I don't know I guess I need some advice. Seriously there has been no purchasing going on for a long time she knows my pockets aren't real deep.

LOL I know right? but who gets intimate with their daddy??!! ick?

I am 47 years old. Up the street I have some friends I have known for oh 23 years or so. We are good friends. They have a daughter who is 27 and has a girl of her own ansd they live with her parents.I have built computers for them and done on and off repairs on them over the years. Last march after fixing her little girls computer she asked me if she could buy me lunch. I laughed and told her it wasn't necessary and went on my way.

The next day at work she calls me and asks me again. I tell her she really doesn't have to do that. She then says "Sky I am trying to tell you I want to get to know you better!!!" I had no clue she was interested in me. So I said OK on one condition you let me take you out Friday night. She agreed and we dated the next couple months and got intimate.

I would buy things for her and I down deep was sure she was only interested in me as a novelty and what I could spend. So to keep myself in denial when she commented one day on something she would like to have. I kinda hinted like "Aww I wish I had the money I would love to get that for you" she responded "That's OK I don't want you to buy it" I did this maybe one time.

So a few weeks later we slowed down seeing each other till we wouldn't talk for maybe a week or so then she might call and say hey can you fix this or that. I would fix it then she would tell me she misses me so much can we do lunch or dinner. Then we are meeting once a week and doing that. Meanwhile she has been dating other guys and I encouraged her one night that she was young and needed to date. Then she tells me that's why she loves me so much!!??? WTH? LOL

Anyway that pretty much was a month or so ago. I get an e-mail the other day from her asking me How I am is anything new and how she misses me and ends with "Love you always" WTH? Here we go again. What do you people make of all this? I need someone from the outside looking in to maybe explain to me what I have gotten myself into here.

47 and a proud sponser of Viagra!

No words to explain how this speaks on so many levels.

Broken



Broken hearts or broken minds

Naked bodies limbs entwined

Seething emotions ebb and flow

Tides of trust come and go

Listless dreams and hopes ensue

Promises broken nothings true

swelling hearts and heaving breast

passionate moans faked at best

Spirits soar when white lies are spread

Truths then surface from beneath the dead

No longer loved cramped and cold

Anguish flares when the facts are told

No love was ever mine to hold

Just an illusion so I'm told

Alone I lay as does my kind

Broken hearts and twisted minds.


Sky