The other times I felt like I still loved him,and that was the reason I stayed and held on.but I realized now its not love its rather getting used so much to be with him,and thinking I won't be complete if I don't have this relationship.its so hard sometimes to feel like you deserve better,u start personalizing a situation n making it to you.like u were born to live n be treated in that certain way even if you know deep down its not normal.coz I once reach a point were I even made myself to believe heart breaks is normal for me n I should jus,rush to get over things.every one deserves to love n be loved back n be happy.and a relationship is a 50/50.

I was in a 9yrs relationship,and after 5 yrs everything changed,and ever since then its been fighting to keep.june this year I realized being in love is supposed to make you happy and I wasn't.and I tried to see what was I holding on too and it was actually nothing.please give advises,cause this time I really wanna move on .and get over it.