That has to be really tough. I can't imagine. You had plans but now your plans are different. I'm not a "God had different plans for you" kind of person, but regardless your plans are different now, and in some respects it may be a bad thing but in others it may end up being a good thing. The impact such change really has on our lives is immeasurable, both in good ways and bad. Just continue to persevere. You're a strong person. Your strength defines you. You can hold your head high about that if nothing else.