i remodel old houses for a living
of course i have fun and life is good for me i was just curious on why women dont stay with me that long

lol
im sorry man ive had that to so your not alone
have a drink talk with me lol

yeah but they dont last long
my longest relationship is 2 days
"theels" WTF

well i dont have any freinds i can rely on they have all betrayed me in thier own way
like i said ive been a messed up person since i was a baby ive always been this way
like i said there is no way for me to change and i dont want to
i know he would be kind of pissed at me but ive done everything that i can to be the person i am now
one who like's to write poetry,draw, i love my family(even though they get on my nerves but who's doesnt sometimes)
im a good person i just like the way i dress and the way i am

no the promise we made was never to change for anyone
(and wearing black is what ive been doing for many many years now)
and to care for everyone and evrything

its not an emo thing
i hate them and i have moved on and i am happy with myself just no one else is happy with me thats my problem

i will never change the way i am for anyone thats the promise i made to my freind

ive been like this for the past 6 years ever since my best freind killed himself right in front of me
and that day i cant erase it, plus we made a promise to eachother

i have and its still black
im just a messed up person and there's nothing that can change that

lol will do

i know im waiting for the right one for me

thanks

thats the whole thing im wiccan
i believe my heart will heal in time but until then ill just keep going with what im doing and maybe just maybe
and its cold in my house

someone who accepts me for who i am and cares about me for me not what i look like
but i havent found that yet so ill just be searching

i know thats why i write poetry
im just waiting

i did they all said the same thing
(i want to be with you but im not ready yet)
then i find out afterwords they have someone

im not looking for an intamite encounter
i have i was just saying
ive had a black heart for years now im looking for someone to heal it

i know i like older women
and yes those pillows will do nicely lol
i just dont know

its like no matter what i do every relationship that im in always ends the same way
as far as i know i did nothing to make them change thier mind they didnt want to be with me
i just dont get it

Pillar of Stone.

Give me heaven, then damn me to hell.
Pick me up, kiss it better, make me well.
Then cast me back into the flames,
and ignore me, I feel no pain.
I am just a stone, so step on me.
I will hold you up, you see.
But a step later, you've already forgotten me.


But once you're gone, and can't hear or see,
I crumbled to dust, and you've destroyed me.
Can you tell me from any other stone?
Do you see me on my own?
Or am I just another pebble?
I was a stone that never hurt your feet.
I was the stone with a heart beat.
And I still am. I always will be.