I am sometimes at the end of my rope. I lost my Mom to breast cancer (met) in April of 05. She was 63. She fought for 8 yrs.

My younger sister was diagnosed with breast cancer in 01. She was 39. She had already metastasized by the time they found it. Stage 4. She had a mastectomy and chemo. Then another round of chemo. The a period of a year with no growth of the cancer. Not exactly a "remission" but , no growth. She went off chemo, and had a great year of a nearly normal life. The cancer started growing and taking over almost 2 yrs ago. She has been going thru more chemo "trials", they are kicking her butt. The last round they have canceled due the the side effects knocking her on her butt.
We know its only a matter of time. She really thought she could beat this. She is now 45. Its not looking good. I am beyond greif stricken. She is my best friend. She is the sweetest, kindest woman anyone will ever meet. She has been thru so much in her life.

I don't know how to deal with this. I am trying to be supportive to her feelings and needs. She says she needs me to understand an be supportive of her needing to move on. I want to , In my brain. My heart just can't cope.

Thank you for just letting me vent.