I left in 2005 to join the army. It was august 5 2005 to what i always dreamed of, but little did i know it would be the biggest nightmare of my life. I made it to November 2005 when i broke my leg, i had to go home and heal, but I'd come back in 30 days. All together it was almost a year in Basic Training when it was suppose to be 14 weeks. I made it out to become a soldier. I spent most of my days wondering what it would be like once I was out, but i had to get my head on straight cause i was Iraq bound. I landed in pitch black of night and wondered where the hell i was, the nesxt morning i saw...Hell. Sand, tents and port o johns thats i saw, for the next 15 months more and more stuff came in. Actual flush toilets (they clogged easy) showers that didn't drain well, but it was better then a bottle of water like we had before. At the end we lost 12 of our Brothers in arms to the enemy. I came home, and got out of the army. I was bound for Phoenix Az, and i thought I'd have it all, a job, my own place, you know everything a 24 year old young man would want, but i was wrong. I sit here typing this a 109 in the morning and wonder where i went wrong, its hell trying to get unemployment, and even harder to get a job. Maybe theres a lesson in this all who know. I figured I'd write this down for all those thinkin of joining and for my own reason, try to figure it all out.

It's the predators that are actually out there hunting for it that sicken me.

i don't wanna miss a thing - aerosmit

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Wonderful Tonight - Eric Clapton

I don't get it. Keeping one relationship going strong is hard enough...why start a new chapter before the other is finished?

If the circumstances permitted, would you get back together with your first true love?

I have been with my ex boyfriend for 3 years. He got a job in Houston and told me before he left that I was not physically attractive anymore. I love him so much that I want him back. What can I do?