This thing about free will is BS.
You can get sick even if you don´t will it. And you must die like everyone else. The things that are really impoortant do not happen to people because they will them. You cannot even will the way your child is going to look when he/she is born. And you certainly can´t will the rain, or the wind to blow, or a fruit to grow from a tree out of season.
You are in for a big surprise if you believe that lie about free will. Creation may be many things, but it is not a free for all. I doubt even if it is democratic. Haha,

Well I have been thrown into some corner of blue space by circumst5ances and everything is weird here, and I am trying to regain some perspective and a sense of solidity. So I hop i can connecto to some normal woman with whom talking openly is not a costant game of see if you can catch me, hide and seek etc...Some talk over nice drinks, and then things develope into friendship, whatever.