Hi Robert, I just joined this site and I just want to say that it takes a real man to say I am sorry for anything and to ask for forgiveness. This is a very admirable character. God loves it when we peel away our layers and come before him naked, it is at these times that God begins to move through us. Keep hungering and thirsting for righteousness, one day if you don't give up you will achieve the fullness of the God head and the power of God will eradicate all areas in which you desire changes.

Novise