so someone dependent on ssi or ssdi?

I'll be lucky if people don't start running soon

why the heck not

fuzzy

Well where to start (without going into details). I was abused from the age of 4 to 12. I almost died several times during this. I was diagnosed as having PTSD when I was 21. The therapist suspects it was affecting me from the 4th grade on. My triggers are almost impossible to avoid as most of them are visual. I do have the extreme end of it. I've been having the black outs since 5th grade. Use to get into trouble in school because I would get up and walk around when I was told to sit in my desk. Teacher would ask me why I got up and I honestly told them that I didn't. I have zero memories from my black out points. I have found very few people who have it to my extent and even fewer who can understand what it is like to live like me.

A video about PTSD to share

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y6_H-A-JuE0

one thing I would like to point out. Not every challenged person has emotional issues. I know my own things I deal with but am also referred to by my friends as the most level headed of my group. Most people with ptsd actually are very level headed. They have to be. The condition shows it self in several ways. Most common is panic attacks that can come on when a trigger reminds them of a traumatic time. You also have to remember that many stress related illnesses are misdiagnosed as PTSD.

wise

cool

just realized how strange that pic of me is. I'm holding a flower and wrapped up in my skull blanket.

I tend to attract nut jobs

has a self destructive ex you might like

must find site to execute my plans for tshirt dating lol

Love both the Ginga series

I wanna go fishing

49 break every rule. If he doesn't run screaming he's a keeper

indian taco... but it has to be done right with a really good fry bread

brown sugar - rolling stones

I'd watch a movie with my son. After that do what he wants until I go

reason I'm asking all of this is my own personal issues. Thing is other then I move a little slowly most days you would never know anything is wrong with me. But for some reason when they do find out about my "challenges" they go running. One guy went running after several months when he found out. Being on the inside of the situation looking out it's hard for me to comprehend why it is a problem. If a vet comes back from a war with the same issues as me people look at them as a hero and everyone wants to be with them "I've seen this personally as I have many military people in my family". But if someone goes threw their own private war here at home and comes out of it with scars "mental and or physical" they kind of get pushed to the side.

This is nothing I'm truely upset about. I see a persons choice as their choice and nothing more. As my point of view on this is so drastically different I'm just trying to get some insight in order to understand it.

no you can't have my jerky, Please go away.