Dawnette, It has been almost 2 years now since I lost my son. You never stop missing them and wishing they were still here. The one thing that keeps me going is knowing that he is in a much better place and not hurting anymore. I also know in my heart that I will see him again someday. Another thing that has really helped is reading books. I have read several books about life on the other side, having very strong needs to know where he is and what he is doing. Something that I never thought too much about until this happened. My thoughts and prayers are with you.