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Thu 03/23/17 07:25 AM
I've been having this burning, muscle spasming, tension pain in my left shoulder. Was told by a physician whom ran no test that it's probably sciatica and was referred to a physical therapist. Was told by a pharmacist filling my pain meds that it sounds like it could possibly be a torn muscle getting inflamed. I left my job since I was being over worked without concern of time needed to heal, but there might be another cause. I'm no longer lifting and moving things daily so I thought the pain had ceased. Now after a recent string of stressful events, the last being an argument with a close friend where I was blamed for something that wasn't my fault, I was in intense crippling pain. The both shoulders and even my upper arms were spasming and tight. even my knees and calf's were burning and locking. I've come to believe it's stress... but if I can't escape the issues causing the stress how am I to handle this. To be in crippling pain is to be rendered unproductive; I can't work if in pain. And now I may be suffering from anxiety.

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Tue 02/28/17 12:58 PM
Great... so for some odd reason I can read all these other threads no problem but when I go to read the comments on mine it crashes every time...

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Tue 02/28/17 04:38 AM
smile and rarely speak I'll get attention and asked out. The second I began to express my interest, thoughts and preferences men generally stop talking to me. I laughed at your monkey bit as more often then not I am the one called on to fix others mistakes, give guidance or pick up slack. I'm rarely if ever given credit for it and I know no one contacts me unless they need something. It's a bit disheartening to understand when people contact you it's not to check on your we'll being or invite you to a planned event, but to ask for a favor.

This was ment to go with the above comment that was prematurely posted by my thumb while typing lol.

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Tue 02/28/17 04:29 AM
Well well.look at all the brainy people..
Sensitive, caring, compassionate, self analyzing ,self aware.. highly intelligent and well-spoken..
Hmmm. And you wonder why people perceive you as a threat...well.. my fellow introverts... not to worry just seek out people the same as you...
And you will have friends and love interest in no time... don't try to relate or lower yourself to the standards of those Neanderthals.. those family.. and pretentious.. knuckle draggers.. that go through life.. on a superficial Shallow Hal.. level.... they're about as deep as a kiddie pool.. that is half full...lol... hold your heads up high way up stick your chest out... don't even give them a Second Glance.... and before you know it they are going to be looking at you and thinking wow!!what do they got going on pretty impressive..yup... have confidence in your Superior intellect... they are the monkeys you. Are the monkey cleaner uppers..lol..ok.. that came out wrong.. you are the organ grinder..no.. that's not it either..hmmmm.. oh nevermind! you're all pretty smart you'll figure it out

Maybe I expect too much of people. I presume that when I make it known to other's something they're saying or doing upsets or irritates me they will make a mental note and attempt to avoid a repeat, as I do. When in fact most approach the situation as a mouse in a maze... unfortunately even that may be too pretentious as most do not learn by trial and error as the mice do. I hear all too often that I am attractive and as long as knod

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Sun 02/26/17 06:38 PM
I wish they said great things about me. I usually get spoke of as the untrustworthy stanger. Most treat me like a threat or competition.

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Sun 02/26/17 05:32 PM
For as long as I can remember I've never fit in; not with family, with others in school or in life in general. It's as though I was born in the wrong era. I've tried adjusting and conforming to what I see around me and for a while it works; I'll make friends, meet a guy... but it's very short lived as one of two things happen, I either grow irritated and start lashing out or I try to be more of myself and people slowly back away. I'm not sure what the problem is. I'm quirky for sure but I'm not a bad looking woman. I'm articulate, talented, self analyzing, independent, caring to the best of my abilities. Yet still I haven't made not one permanent bond with anyone in life. At this point I'm starting to question if it's even possible in this life time. I'm noticing I'm becoming more withdrawn as the years go by. I'm 34 and I have literally one friend at the moment and no family. My phone hardly ever rings and I never go anywhere outside of work anymore. I mean I could do activities alone but....