lol. oh wow XD

LOL.
well, i was on okcupid.com
to just talk with ppl.
but there are alot of ****heads on there.
like, you wouldn't believe 0.o
a dating site with drama? lol.

lol!
if ur female perving, ur gonna attract male pervs XD

LOL.
ahem, i dont think i could have sex on the first date,
mainly cuz i do need to know the girl.
unless we were friends first.
and if she brought it up.

but if we're not friends..
and she puts out so easily..

well, who am i to judge her? ;]

hahahaha!

wow. I read your whole post, and I'm sorry you're feeling the way you are. But, I'd say to follow your gut instincts right now. I'm not a professional or anything, but breaking away from whatever routine you have is going to make you feel alive, more so than doing nothing. if what you're doing now does not compete with what you had before, that doesn't really mean you have to go back, although it's an option. I think it's great that you're sober. It means you have willpower and that's very respectable.

Find something to live for, is what my philosophy teacher told me.
I'm in a rut myself and I fall in and out of depression.
And what has helped me, at least, is getting out.
Doing something different, be with new people, try new stuff.

I'd say to just think of what you want to do,
and then go and do it.
no thinking or anything.
I hope this helped at least a lil bit.

I think it's not cheating,
but it's definitely not in the same group of fidelity lol.
if you're really in love with someone,
you shouldn't flirt with anyone else.