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Thu 05/21/09 02:58 PM


I respect your views..but feel if Christ were here today...he would be amazed at how much people misinterpet his message.
I believe Christ was who he was...a man in tune to God.But feel the church have it all wrong!



Christ is here today-He's never truly left! And the Holy Spirit guides us in all things if we are open to His guidance.

Some churches may be more concentrated in one aspect of their belief than others. That doesn't make them 'wrong' just because they focus on certain aspects of the bible more--they are still preaching the Word of God. Not all churches are the same though. There may be a chuch that is more in tune to what you follow 'specifically', and so long as it follows Jesus and teaches what He taught, it can not be wrong.

We are meant to love each other as Christians, not bicker among ourselves as to whose church is the best or the 'right' way to follow Christ. That's "too" religious of a mindset, too man-made. I say again not all churches are the same, and rightly so! If we are the body of Christ, the body has many aspects and functions. And individually we all have a function or purpose to fulfill in God's will. (We all have gifts and blessing from our Father, be it teaching, intercessing, prophacy, listening, speaking(even in tongues), healing, being compassionate etc...) Just because one chuch is different from another doesn't make it wrong. It's when we put aside our petty petty differences and function all together as ONE united body of Christ, all performing our designated functions together, that we truly become the warriors of God as we are intended to be!!




Well said. Very good points made and I agree very much with you.

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Sun 05/10/09 04:54 PM
I have to say, I originally didn't know why I started this topic, but I am glad that I did. It's grown more than I thought it would, and has been very interesting reading what people have been saying on all sides. Many good points from all sides as well.

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Wed 05/06/09 12:29 PM
I would like to say that I came to my conclusion and acceptance of myself being Bi just before I found God. I believe that God had a specific reason for calling me to him at that time. Now I'm sure there will be people on here who will say that he was trying to save my soul, well yeah he did. But I don't believe it was to renounce my sexuality. I believe it's because I finally accepted a part of myself that my heart was finally open to receive him.

For those who think that I'm not a Christian b/c of my sexuality, I’d like to say that the true walk as a Christian is never an easy path. We all have our independent obstacles that test our faith in the lord. The bible gives us plenty of examples that God asks some people to do things that are larger than ourselves, and sometimes almost unimaginable of doing. But they did them b/c of their faith. I know that a large majority think I'm hypocritical for being bisexual and claiming to be a Christian, but b/c of my faith, my heart cannot and will not deny that Jesus is my savior and that God is my creator. Though you may try to tell me to change, I already have, and I did chose the Lord. Every time I hear that I will go to hell b/c of my sexuality, the lord shields my heart from such evil, and it's not an easy decision to be barraged by opposition, but that decision wasn't mine, the will of God is above my own, and I choose to give myself to his will to the best of my ability. The easy way out would be to not continue my walk with the lord, and deny what he made me. But I am meant to face this opposition, which I believe will always be a never ending test of my devotion to the lord. If I was not truly a Christian, then why would I continue to face these afflictions? God put into us what he knew he could use of us, but it is Satan that manipulates what is actually good in us, to be used in sin. We may not realize that we are sinning though b/c it’s used through something that God put in us. So I’m bisexual b/c God made me that way. If that’s wrong then are you saying that god is wrong?

For those who say that if you were in my position, you wouldn't chose to be Christian b/c of the religious community, I am sorry b/c it has taken onto itself what I believe to be a false position of power to make judge-mental truths of God, which has turned you away, instead of bringing you to the Lords embrace. The lord rejoices more for one soul that is saved, for we all have one soul, so each of us is greatly desired by the lord. I also have no intention of looking for another religion that is more accepting, b/c I can’t chose a faith more appealing. Because then I’d be choosing to have a religion to fit my lifestyle, but I believe that this is the only God, no other exists. I need to live a Christian lifestyle, as well as a bisexual lifestyle together to make a mixed lifestyle. I truly believe that Jesus is my savior, and that God exists. I can only hope because of who I am, that the lord may use me to bring people to his love, and that those people he wants me to save are those which have had such oppressions make them shy away from him.

I felt that these thoughts should be shared and I hope it may help others to understand where I’m coming from.

~Estena~

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Wed 05/06/09 07:13 AM

When (and where) I grew up, the words “homo” and atheist was foul language. Proclaiming to be an atheist was a statement declaring your enmity. Proclaiming by word, or deed, to be a “homo” were signs of significant illness as much as schizophrenia and anti-social disorder (psychopaths) are today.

Instead of declaring my atheism, I was simply searching—that solved one of my dilemmas.
When I experienced my first great attraction and my only great love, to date, I didn’t even know what a “homo” was; I knew I could not be that foul thing. I knew I was different but I had convinced myself that everyone could fall in love and the gender of that person would not matter. It was just that most people tended to fall in love with the opposite gender. That was what I “truly” believed.

I had not even been exposed to the whole word ‘homosexual’ till my teen years. When I finally learned what a homosexual was, I had trouble connecting the definition with the horrible comments and attitudes related to the word “homo.” I was still sure I could not be that thing and I clung to the belief I had developed.

Today, far removed from that distant past, I have found the greatest fulfillment in proclaiming that I am both, a lesbian (homo, queer, or whatever) and an atheist.

Because of my early belief, I have been able to understand and connect with all the spectrum of sexuality and gender identity. I call it a spectrum because I believe sexuality is more a continuum with the TOTALLY heterosexual in the majority (and at the bottom) and the open minded and more accepting sexually diverse as a continuation at the top.

Don’t get excited: heterosexuals are only at the bottom because they are the base of humanity, necessarily so to keep the species going. But times change, just as Islam is closing ranks on Christianity and dark skinned people, mostly African American, are closing ranks with the white American population, so the people who make up the diverse spectrum of sexuality are coming of age, and their numbers may only be relative to the amount of acceptance in the “bottom” portion of society.

Welcome to the spectrum Estina and to Mingle2, you are fortunate to be coming of age at a time when your diversity is more acceptable, a time when knowledge, more so than tradition, is power.



Thank you and that was very insightful. You sound like an amazing women.

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Sun 05/03/09 05:39 AM

Bi-sexual christian virgin, well which one is it?


All three

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Sat 05/02/09 03:23 PM
Wow, it's nice to be receiving everyone's feedback!

For me, as a bisexual, I like women and men in similar and also different ways, and at different degrees. It's difficult to explain exactly, which is why it took me many years to figure out that I am indeed bisexual. I could live happily with a man or a women. For me sex isn't the most important thing in a relationship. If I were to meet the right person, I could live happily even if we never had sexual intercourse.

I am a 20 year old who is a virgin, and though I do have my desires, I strive to remain abstinent until I'm with the right person. I grew up thinking i would wait until marriage, but I have always felt that I shouldn't hold myself to that thought completely as I may break it, but I do try to hold to it for the most part. Before I found Jesus, and for a little while afterwords, I fooled around with others sexually, however never fully. Though, I have come to realize that those actions were sinful. Now I won't participate in those form of behaviors, unless I'm with someone who loves me and I them.

I'm proud to hold onto my morals and feel it's how god wants me to be. Yes I do have my desires still, however I'm learning to overcome them. I've found more healthy ways of dealing with my desires, though only by not acting on them with others.

God made me the way I am for a reason. Why? I do not know just yet.

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Mon 04/27/09 07:22 AM
I'm a bisexual Christian, and that is who I am. Any others out there? Anyone have anything to say?

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Mon 04/27/09 07:16 AM
I was saved back last October so i have a lot of growth in Christ to to still. i haven't gone out witnessing myself just yet, but i want to. Some of my Youth Group members at my Church do go out and witness though. I just haven't gone with them yet.

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Mon 04/27/09 07:11 AM
Lol thank you all for welcoming me so warmly. I appreciate it.

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Thu 04/23/09 10:32 AM
Thanks lol

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Thu 04/23/09 10:29 AM
Hello, I'm looking to find gay and bi guys to talk with.

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Wed 04/22/09 08:05 AM
Hi I'm looking to meet gay or bi guys in dutchess county area, mainly just to make friends with, but possibly eventually something more if it happens.

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Wed 04/22/09 07:59 AM
Yes I do, where in NY do you witness?