I'm 19 a female, and always defined myself as straight.

But I've always been attracted to woman. I've never been with a girl, and It isn't until now that im actually trying to see where it would go with one, but with my family being somewhat homophobic, I cant find myself to actually try it. I know im not curious because I've always felt this way, day dreaming about girls and thinking about it. I'm just totally lost on what I should do. What am I? I don' want my family to hate me but I'm tired of hiding how I really feel...