In my time of dying I knew only pain In my time of laughter My tears fell like rain In my time of heartache My laugher was mute In my time of joy My smiles weren't truth In my time of mourning I found an absence of light In my time of knowledge Ignorance blinded my sight In my time of trusting I knew I was wrong In my time of atonement My sorrow was my song In my time of seething My shattered heart shook In my time of loving My heart decides to let him go And now... For the first time The sky is blue, For the first time I'm over him, For the first time The gr is green, For the first time I can wash my hands clean, For the first time He's not in my head, For the first time I can sleep in this bed, For the first time I don't want to cry, For the first time There's no tears in my eyes, For the first time I'm ok, I've helped myself Work through all the pain, For the first time I'm not ashamed, I can lift my head Above the cold and grey, For the first time, Here I am, Alone, -Alone but ok. **************************** And yeah, I have a kid. His name is Dustin. He is my precious angel. But i was never married. Im single. If you think you can't stand to who i am right now... Don't try to get to know me better.