im gonna be very straightforward and honest. im looking for a relationship or friends, but preferably a relationship, thats it, no ****buddies. i was a volunteer firefighter back home in ny, and i am going to school here to be a professional firefighter which is my ultimate dream. i love hockey, i love my twin sisters to death, their 13. i love my mother to death, without her id be completely ****ed up in the head lol. im not an hole, so maybe thats y can never get a girlfriend? idk. i dont think im too bad looking, right? my personality...if ur gonna b my friend or gf u gotta b able to take a joke, i love laughing, besides that im just looking for a cool girl who understands me and can love me just because im me and no other reason. and im looking for a girl that i can love with all my heart and take care of and have fun with, laugh with, just have a great time with. i need the feeling of being needed, idk , thats just how i am. i love to make my future gf smile because wen shes happy, im happy. that simple. this might sound kinda ****ish, but no larger chics, its just a turnoff for me n idk y. but i do feel extremely bad about it. im sorry. there has been some bad bad **** thats happened to me in the past and that has made me who i am today, it can make me a very cold person to people that i dont care about and im trying to change that. but to the people i care about, i would die for them. literally. i would die for my sisters, mother, uncle, grandparents and my best friend ever, ashlyn. and if u have a problem with me having a girl for a bestfriend or ud be jealous of her, than dont even bother messaging me cause that just shows you wouldnt trust me. if we start talking and i trust u ill b more than happy to tell u what happened to me bcuz a future gf would need to know that. im looking for a serious relationship. i hate being single. even though i have alot of people that love me, when im single i feel completely alone and im so so sick of that feeling. so if i seem like a guy that you would like to talk to u can either leave me a message here or txt my cell: 315-681-3351 anytime. just say who u r and where u got the number so im not like "wtf? whos this chic?" lol. thanks for ur time ladies and hopefully something special will come out of this for both of us :) jer