I am the mother of 5 beautiful children. I have been married twice before and I am lying to myself everytime I date a man. I am interested in a lady who will offer me friendship as well as a lady who is willing to be with me. I have been with women in the past and I feel that it is something that I want to pursue further. (Meaning) I do not want to have a relationship with a man and pull in other women for me and make it seem like I did it for his pleasure instead of mine. I want to be with someone for me and not have to lie about it.