Just got out of a long distance relationship for near a year, i'm hurting... Have you ever longed for someone? Did you ever dream of someone? Touched the spark? But missed the connection? Felt so warm? As the world turned cold? Did you fall in love? As fast as flowers, falling from trees? I don't know when I started writing those text messages, that I could never send.. I cannot help but look for fragments of her throughout my day though I know the distance is real. If my wish were to come true I would go to her side right now, realistically put everything on the line and hold her tight. If a miracle were to happen I'd show it right away, why else would I be waiting for her beautiful voice to sound whilst waiting at a stop light, sitting in cl or dialing a phone.. The memories are revolving, the heart throbbing has not disappeared. Each and every minute we're apart feels dreadfully long. What a terrible fate, time is keeping me from her for a little while longer. This 'time' clearly has evil intentions. Above me, it's slowly flowing away. Don't wait... the lights will flash and fade away, your days will p you by. Holding the one thing I cannot change against me - there's only one thing I can do; brace myself, grit my teeth - to keep from crying.. Torn in two, I am sorry.. part of me pleads that I had never fallen for you in the first place, putting you through such distress, and during such an unimaginably awful time, but you feel how you feel.. The other part is running in the dark looking for some light but I know when the last plane leaves, that you would lie awake and cry for me. How will we know if we just don't try? And it's still so hard for her to be who she is, but she's come this far with a broken heart so she plays this part and the show goes on...I've learned. I do not want to be that guy. She deserves better. How this woman could turn to a ghost before my eyes.. The very dreams that led to her are keeping her from dying; the grace with which she walked into my life will stay with me in my steps and pace with me a while...