I am not so sure that I will ever date again but I know that I can not say that I will be alone from here on out for the rest of my life. Maybe I am more ready to take on those special things involved in a relationship then I think I am ..maybe seeing the right person or a person at the right time will be all it takes. I do not expect that my Love will show up but who knows..maybe I will meet her tomorrow. Maybe I met her yesterday. There are no absolutes in Life..and I will not completely turn my back on the potential of what could be based on my own assessments of what I expect to be. .. Some people around me say that they found whom they were looking for and they somehow ruined their chance at happiness and love because now they are so alone..so heartbroken and so sad...Their one true love..their soul mate is gone...that one chance they receive in life..for the special person that was meant to be there for them...is now lost. I am confused..how can you say that..how can you say you will never meet that person becuase the person you thought was that person has walked away from you. Maybe that relationship was meant only as a stepping stone to that special life lasting relationship you were meant to share in. Its funny how things you do not expect to happen can happen and immediatelty influence how you might think about your life and where you are going. The road constantly shifts. Such minor things as a new job, a promotion, a person you just met at the grocery store or at some outing you did not expect to be going to. A couple weeks ago I felt it important to move away and be closer to my girls...Now I am not so sure...its still important for me to be close to them but its not an absolute...It was easy to say that then...no true friends...no relationships...work could be done elsewhere as it could be here...but then things change...something in the water some might say...You can not hope to be able to predict what might happen or what you perceive will happen in the future becuase you do not know what crazy changes life may throw at you...its one thing to believe that you will never move forward and meet that person and another to say that you will be on your own the rest of your life with no true chance at finding your soul mate or one true love. There is still hope..life's little randomizations still to filter through and make its presense known..like small stones creating an avalanche..or a pebble thrown into a lake creating a ripple that slowly expends outward creating larger and large shockwaves affecting the shore line..much like the wake of waves from a motorboat affecting the beach.. so to may your life change. There are no absolutes in life...please do not place them in yours...you may turn blind eye to what was meant for you right from the start the very reason why you went through to get to that point.. There is still hope...all you need is faith that if it is meant to be that your paths will cross.. and will cross Soon.

Well, keep the faith!