November 13, 2007

Once.


Once I existed.

I existed in total darkness, wondering blind for ages.
I existed in a great battle on the great sands within death's hourglass.
I existed in a body I did not know how to use.
I existed until I went extinct.

Once I breathed.

Inhaling and exhaling until my cells died from the air.
I inhaled the smoke from a hundred burning souls.
I burnt out my lungs, long ago.

Once I ate.

A piece of paper, a piece of glass, a piece of apple pie; it went everywhere.
I once ate a cookie of god and the devil they didn't taste right.
I swallowed my eyeballs they ended up in my mouth.

Once I laughed.

Till wine spewed out of my nose.
Till my lunges exploded and my heart combusted, it was amazing.
Till I cried so hard it hurt so bad.

Once I bled.

From the eyes, ears, nose, lips.
From the heart and wrists.
From the deepest part of my soul

Once I loved.

More then anyone was able to.
More then anyone could understand.
More then was allowed.

Once I was broken.

Dipped my heart in Nitric acid threw it across the room.
Then released above the earth to be scattered everywhere.
Never to be whole again, empty inside.

Once I spoke to death.

I asked to take his place as the reaper of souls.
I asked him things no one else can know, he told me.
I asked him why I was here, he told me not.
I kicked his butt in a game of chess he cursed my soul.

such pain

you will probably never know...but i hope you enjoy the adventure

That is sad.

Isn't it? I seem to write the best either when I am in love or sad. Mostly sad and alone though.

May your soul find the peace it searches for

The writing is good, but I hope your spirits lift.

Love & Light,,, May the calm you need find its home within